Lou Dobbs is right

Outsourcing is on my agenda, too.

Lou Dobbs is right. So is that cartoon engineer Dilbert: We have to do something about the trend of American jobs going overseas. I realized this as I was inspecting the new data center in New Delhi for my U.S. company, Insituform Technologies, Inc.

With 2,500 employees, Insituform Technologies may not be the largest company in America, but we clean water in 40 countries using dozens of currencies and 80 pieces of intellectual property. The demands on our information technology are intense.

In addition to paying all the taxes, adhering to local regulations, and monitoring currency fluctuations, we have to track equipment, materials, and labor from our 100 crews that measure productivity and daily costs around the world.

As demand for clean water has grown throughout the globe, so has our business. Last year in the United States, the Environmental Protection Agency reported 73,000 sewer leaks. Many more go undiscovered and therefore unreported.

As our business grows, so do the needs of our data management operations.

When we learned we needed a better system, our first choice was to develop and run it here in America, but that didn’t last long. We discovered that transferring our data operations to India would not only give us the same capability for less money, but we would also have resources left to upgrade our system’s sophistication, reliability, redundancy, and security.

So we replaced the nine employees in our information technology department with highly educated professionals half a world away that make $9 an hour.

It was not a popular decision in or outside of our company. From Dilbert to Dobbs, many critics see outsourcing as proof positive that corporate greed is ruining the country; transforming America into a nation that does nothing but “take in the world’s laundry.”

For us it is not about profits, but survival: Either we slash costs and improve productivity, or our customers will either have to eat the higher prices, or find someone else who offers services at a lower cost.

As I walked through our data center, I saw not only a possible future of America, but also its past.

The people working for us are highly educated and highly motivated. For many, it is the best job anyone in his or her village has ever had. They all dream of having more responsibilities, more skills, more money—and they all have a fierce desire to do what it takes to get them.

The combination of work ethic and entrepreneurship struck me as what Americans must have been like 100 years ago. The world seemed open, bright and full of opportunity for those with the desire to take it.

This is the spirit that made America the most prosperous nation in the history of the world. The attitude Indians learned from us and embrace with enthusiasm now seem to frighten many in this country.

It is ironic that 25 years ago, the Indians embarked on this course by discarding socialism, lowering taxes, and encouraging trade. They learned this from us too. Now we must learn it all over again from them.

Not being competitive is not an option for our company—or our country. In our company’s case, we may be laying off nine employees, but we are hiring at least 30 more.

In India we are not just transferring work, but finding new customers. We spent time talking to the water authorities there about cleaning up the holiest yet dirtiest river in the world, the Ganges. And we held similar talks with customers and suppliers in Hong Kong, Japan, Malaysia, and other parts of Asia.

As these countries grow, so does their demand for goods and services that we in America can provide better than anyone else in the world. But this will remain true only if we are willing to recognize what our value is and, above all, if we are willing to become fiercely competitive in order to provide them.

No one can make guarantees to any American company, at home or abroad, other than this: If we do not compete and make our products and services better, faster, and less expensive, we can and we will lose.

When President Kennedy met Prime Minister Nehru, he told him about the educational benefits the Peace Corps will have in India. Nehru replied, “Yes, I’m sure your young people will learn a lot.”

Those young people are now running the country. And it is time we start learning. Dilbert and Dobbs are right. We have to do something.

And that something is get better.

 

For couscous and conversation

An unlikely friendship is born across religious and generational divides.

On a trip with Mehdi to Asilah, a small town known for its arts and culture festival which occurs during the summer each year.

Nearly every afternoon I stumble out of the stifling Moroccan heat into the cool lobby of Residence Tarik, take the elevator up five floors, and ring the doorbell of apartment number 38. And nearly every afternoon I am greeted by the smiling face of my surrogate mother, Fatima*, and exclamations of “I missed you!” and “Where were you?” before being ushered inside for a cozy chat over a sumptuous lunch.

Though I’ve been in Morocco for only a year, this ritual of three-hour lunches with Fatima and her family now seems like something I’ve been doing my whole life.

Coming here was one of the biggest decisions I’ve ever made. Though I’d traveled a bit by myself, and had the support of my parents, choosing to move 3,000 miles from my beloved New England home—where I’d spent most of my life—was not easy. I wasn’t so much afraid of what I’d find upon arriving, but of what I could be giving up by not staying in Vermont. Nevertheless, I decided to pursue my ultimate adventure.

What I’d been most anxious about was making friends. I’d spent a few months studying Arabic in Morocco earlier and had no real trouble meeting people, but that was at a progressive, English-language university in the mountain village of Ifrane, where the students spend their weekends much like American college kids. Meknes—where I’d be teaching English at the American Language Center—was a totally different cultural environment. Located in the heart of the Middle Atlas Mountains with a population of 650,000, it’s a city full of tradition and paternalism. And unlike its big sisters Rabat and Casablanca, there isn’t much of a foreign community.

Fatima’s main salon where the family gathers for food and conversation as well as television watching and larger  events.

An invitation home

In the beginning, though, making friends was easy. I’d meet someone while exploring the city and quickly receive an invitation to coffee or Friday couscous. It all seemed simple enough, but after a while I noticed that many of these “friends” were more interested in either showing off their newfound American acquaintance or trying to turn me into a Moroccan, rather than enjoying me for who I was.

By the time the holy month of Ramadan rolled around, I was trying to decide between the many invitations I’d received from my female students with trepidition. Ramadan, the month of sawm (or fasting), is one of the five critical pillars of Islam and carries with it important traditions in Morocco. Each day at the sound of the muezzin, families gather to pray, and then break the fast that they’ve been observing all day. Piles of dates, glasses of fresh milk, harira soup and plenty of other goodies are laid out, with the choicest picks placed in front of guests. As the new young American teacher, all my students wanted the distinction of my visiting their homes for lftour, the “break-fast.”

I was still weighing my options when Mehdi, one of my male students, invited me to his family’s home for this special event. He was the first boy to do so. Intrigued, I said yes. And that was how I first met Fatima.

Posing for a photograph with Mehdi on a trip to the coast of Tangier, a major port of Morocco and the country’s closest link to Europe.

Breaking the fast

On the Sunday of my rendezvous with Mehdi, I was nervous.

In a country where the unemployment rate lingers at around 20 percent, many young Moroccan men have a habit of “chasing after passports,” so to speak. And though Mehdi wasn’t one of my best students, he was a charming one. He would often make off-color jokes during class using vocabulary my other students didn’t yet know––generally words I would never dream of teaching them—providing me with a bit of inside laughter during a difficult first semester dealing with teenagers more interested in flirting than learning English.

Searching through my closet for nearly thirty minutes, I finally decided on jeans and a pink sweater. After all, I wanted to be myself, and dressing up wasn’t going to win me any true friendships. I tied my hair back and wrapped a pink scarf over the front of my hair like a headband. At four o’clock in the afternoon, I headed out the door to meet Mehdi near the school.

When I found him leaning against an old Volkswagen, dressed head to toe in Adidas sportswear, I breathed a small sigh of relief that I’d chosen casual clothes. He greeted me with a kiss on each cheek, the traditional Moroccan greeting usually reserved for same-sex friends, but adopted by the younger, more Westernized generation as a greeting for all friends, regardless of gender. I let out another breath.

Mehdi and I spent the next couple of hours driving through parts of historic Meknes: the giant faux lake built by the tyrannical eighteenth century king Moulay Ismail, the dungeon where that same king kept his prisoners. Time passed quickly without any lingering awkwardness on my part, and soon I was being led to the door of his family’s fifth-floor apartment building in the French-built ville nouvelle of Meknes.

Upon entering, I drew in a quick breath. Most Moroccan homes I’d seen were decorated with plastic flowers, imported Chinese fabrics, and little glass trinkets and baubles. This one was quite different (which would later become a metaphor for the family itself). The rugs were luxurious, the lighting sublime. One section of the salon was furnished traditionally with oak banquettes and plush silk-covered cushions; the other section was a modern adaptation of a traditional Moroccan salon, with saffron-colored couches and a low round table. It had an airy yet cozy feel to it, as though it would be the perfect place to relax with a book. I was led into a smaller living room, more simply furnished, where Mehdi’s father was watching television. I was introduced and told to sit while we waited for the call to prayer that would signal the end of the day’s fast.

At the call, Mehdi, his brother and father excused themselves to go pray in the large salon while I waited alone. When the prayer ended after a few minutes, Mehdi returned and showed me to the kitchen where he introduced me to his mother, Fatima.

Fatima dressed me for a party in one of her finest caftans. Moroccan caftans are worn by women at weddings and other special ceremonies.

“You must eat!”

She was young-looking and plump, with rosy cheeks that gave her a sort of jolliness and betrayed her age (43). Her long hair was tied back and she wore an apron over her casual jeans and collared shirt. After kissing me warmly on both cheeks and uttering the requisite marhaba (welcome), she shuffled me to my seat, where she proceeded to pile my plate high with tiny pizzas, boiled eggs, traditional sweets, dates, and fruit.

I don’t know if it was the presence of Fatima or Mehdi, or the fact that this was the only Moroccan family I’d met that ate in their kitchen at a regular table and on chairs (as opposed to a salon of banquettes and a low, round table against which I’d always bump my knees), but I suddenly felt strangely at home, even as Fatima shouted “Eat! Eat!” and piled endless amounts of food onto my plate. I learned that she spoke English, but hadn’t practiced much since finishing her baccalaureate studies ten years earlier. She worked outside of the home as a French teacher in one of the poorest areas of Meknes, where I later learned she had spent the early years of her marriage.

After Ramadan ended and winter came around, I began spending more time with Fatima, and therefore more time at her home. At first, I found myself being invited to Friday couscous. Then, Tuesday paella. Soon, it was every day, whatever was being served, and I’d better have an excuse if I couldn’t make it. If I didn’t come, the next time I visited I’d be bombarded with questions from Mehdi’s father and brother, as well as Fatima, of course.

It wasn’t very long at all before lunch was just an excuse for having conversations with Fatima. I would come over before the meal, before her sons had returned home from school and her husband from work, and we would seat ourselves in the small living room, sometimes in front of the television, sometimes not. At first, our conversations centered around innocuous subjects—celebrities, music, Morocco, Arabic language—but it wasn’t long before we were discussing marriage, her children, and the subject I dreaded most: religion.

A Moroccan woman in hijab (traditional head covering worn by many Muslim women worldwide) and djellaba, a hooded Moroccan garment worn by both men and women, takes an afternoon stroll past Bab Mansour.

Home at last

During my time in Meknes, I have learned that many Moroccans—the older ones in particular—are fond of trying to make non-Muslim friends feel guilty about not converting to Islam. Even though Morocco is 99 percent Muslim, the government is fairly secular and there are bars aplenty, but most Moroccans still feel strongly about their religion and its traditions.

The parents of some of my students, my neighbors, even my co-workers, have lectured me on different aspects of Islam. I’m often asked why I don’t pray and how I can believe in God but not ascribe to one faith. I’ve even been told outright that I should just convert. I find it frustrating to be treated so patronizingly. I have read the Quran and have made a conscious decision about Islam rather than avoid it as I did Christianity in my youth.
Raised by two hippie parents who chose to reject their families’ Protestant faith, I spent most of my years growing up blissfully unaware of religion. Though I later found faith in God, I am secure in that faith alone rather than in any organized religion, and feel no need to join a formal practice.

I hated to admit it, but the idea that Fatima might try to convert me was often at the forefront of my mind during our initial months of getting to know each other. She was indeed devout, observing the five-times-a-day call to prayer and wearing the hijab. Although its necessity is a source of debate, the hijab is the headscarf worn by Muslimahs the world over in order to fulfill Islamic dress code, which states that only a woman’s hands and face should be visible. Fatima’s hijab—worn only outside the home and around male strangers—was stylishly tied under her chin and secured with a pin. During those first few months, I observed her wearing a variety of multicolored scarves, from leopard prints to orange silk.

One afternoon I was excitedly telling Fatima about an American Muslimah I’d met at a hip hop show the week before. I described how she wore her dress loose and comfortable, and her hijab loosely wrapped halfway back on her head, but fully covering her chest. I would often watch young Moroccan women, many of them walking around in tight jeans and tops, their faces covered in makeup, but hair and neck wrapped in a tight hijab, and shake my head at their hypocrisy.

As I explained to Fatima how the American wore her hijab, she told me that in her interpretation of the Quran, it is more important for the hijab to cover the chest (or “bosom”, as it is often translated from Arabic) and not so much the entire head. I was surprised to hear this, given the way it’s most frequently worn in Morocco, but she confessed that the manner in which the scarves are worn here is more cultural than religious. She informed me that despite the pressure many women place on each other to begin wearing the hijab at a young age, she didn’t start wearing one until recently. In other words, it had been an entirely personal decision. This, along with her opinion on how it should be worn, revealed her open-mindedness to me. And hearing those words from a Moroccan helped validate my own thoughts on the subject.

Another day, the television was tuned to Histoire, France’s answer to the History Channel. Fatima and I were watching a program on Israel. While I was trying to comprehend exactly what was being said—my French being almost nonexistent—Fatima began to talk about Israel and Palestine, a topic considered taboo in many circles and potentially controversial when discussed between a pious Muslim and a detached American agnostic.

But as she spoke, I soon began to realize once again that we had more in common than I had previously thought. Fatima told me that she disagreed with both sides of the dispute, and while I vigorously nodded my head, she added, “It is a land for everyone.”
It was an argument that was idealistic, utopian, and something I wholly believed in, but I had never found anyone—even during my liberal New York college days—who concurred with me in that belief.

These moments of harmony became more and more frequent. I would relate some piece of trivia or another, and we would share a laugh, or sometimes even a tear or two. In my life outside Fatima’s home, I still felt like an outsider—stared at on the street and shown off to people as “my friend the American.” But in Fatima’s house, I was now an insider. She began to teach me how to cook, asked me to help her with household tasks, and took me shopping. I was no longer a guest in the house, but a member of the family—complete with the familial duties of picking up after myself and coming home every day for lunch. Fatima even asked me to call her “mamati,” a word of affection which literally means “my mother” in Moroccan Arabic.

I also began to realize that my belief in God and my respect for her religion were enough for Fatima. She didn’t want to change me, to make me Moroccan or Muslim. She was satisfied with me being myself.

I still can’t say that I’m totally at home in Morocco. I still can’t get used to the way people drive. I find hypocrisy nearly everywhere; the fact that people sit around in cafés for hours complaining that the government isn’t doing anything to help blows my mind. But when I walk the two blocks every afternoon to Fatima’s house, take the elevator to the fifth floor and knock on her apartment door, I know that I am entering a sanctuary where I won’t be judged for what I do, say, think, or feel. And so it is that in a country where I am a distinct minority—ethnically, religiously, linguistically—I have found a family (and most importantly, a friend) that accepts me for exactly who I am.

*All names in this story have been changed at the request of those involved.

 

Mashing potatoes while smashing the state

When Food Not Bombs anarchists band together to serve meals.

ABC No Rio lets FNB use their kitchen on Fridays and Sundays.

Observing a Food Not Bombs event makes it easier to shop for produce. The moment I touched slime when sorting through old broccoli, deciding which vegetables were safe to feed to the homeless, I realized the silliness of fretting over a dented pepper at the corner bodega.

On a Friday in April shortly before 1 p.m., there was no way inside ABC No Rio, the art and activism hangout on New York’s Lower East Side that lends its kitchen to Food Not Bombs. The doors, marked up with graffiti, were locked, but they also didn’t have handles or knobs. There was a set of four buzzers, but punching them accomplished nothing. A placard next to the stoop read “Culture of Opposition Since 1980.”

Someone spoke up from behind. “Are you here for Food Not Bombs?” A kid with long brown hair hanging across his left eye poked his head around the outside hallway that enclosed the stoop.

He introduced himself as Pat, a high school senior who, instead of going to class, had arranged to spend most of his school days working at the John Heuss House, a homeless drop-in center on Beaver street. For the last few Fridays, though, he’d also been helping out with Food Not Bombs.

Food Not Bombs exists in 46 of the United States and on six continents. Every branch operates independently, but shares the same guidelines: get local grocers to donate ugly produce and other unwanted food, cook up a vegetarian meal (the NYC group is vegan) and serve it to the needy, no questions asked. The ABC No Rio branch gets its food mostly from Perelandra Natural Foods in Brooklyn.

The local Food Not Bombs website says that it was founded on anarchist principles, without leaders or hierarchies. Every Friday and Sunday, anyone who wants to help out with Food Not Bombs can show up in front of ABC No Rio. “There was no walk-in tutorial,” Pat said of his first visit. “It was just, ‘pick up a knife and start cooking.’” When the food is ready, the group brings it over to Tompkins Square Park in the East Village and offers it to anyone who is hungry.

These tomatoes and onions didn’t make the cut due to the puffy white mold near the bottom of the box.

“Usually we talk while we’re making the food, so if you’re willing to cut a tomato they’ll probably tell you what you want to hear,” Pat suggested.

Pat kicked the door a few times and eventually sat down on the steps. He talked about his desire to start carrying rope so he could scale walls, about the origins of his Mao Zedong tee-shirt, which he bought as a novelty item in China, about what he called the self-righteousness of leftists and about Critical Mass, the monthly rally where bicyclists flood the streets of Manhattan to raise awareness for non-pollutant transportation. Pat would be in attendance with his bike that evening.

A college-age girl with the keys to ABC No Rio arrived a few minutes after 1 p.m., gave a brief hello and let us inside.

The house rules certainly didn’t ban writing on the walls; every vertical surface was covered with graffiti, and a blacklight in the hallway gave an intimidating glow to the cryptic art. The girl led us to the second floor kitchen, where someone had neatly written in marker on the door, “Food Not Bombs Mash the Potatos Smash the State.” (A superscript “E” was wedged into “Potatos” to fix the typo.) We finally introduced ourselves — her name was Rudi.

Diane helps prepare a tomato and tofu salad.

We went back downstairs to grab the groceries. Rudi pulled out the food from a sliding-door fridge: an extra-long milk crate full of red, orange, yellow and green peppers, a damp cardboard box of lettuce, broccoli and indiscernible foliage, a crate of cucumbers and squash and an industrial-size trash bag full of bread.

The menu is dictated by what they receive from the stores, and Rudi decided to make stuffed peppers because there were so many. Potatoes, she said, are a popular donation in the winter. A lot of the donations are bread and produce so there’s usually a need to buy extra ingredients. Today, rice would be needed to stuff the peppers.

Before cooking, the inedible vegetables had to be discarded. Most of the greens were too slimy to be used, and those that passed the loose standards still had some rotting at the tips, or were covered in brown juice, which had left a stench on everything in the box.

During the sorting, another girl, Rosie, arrived. She had brown-red hair in dreadlocks tied back in a ponytail, and wore eyeglasses and one of those belts with spiky metal studs. When a question arose about a pepper with a brown spot near the stem, Rosie shrugged and said, “It’s Food Not Bombs,” as if to suggest that anything that wasn’t bombs was passable for consumption.

A song by Oingo Boingo played on a boom box while everyone chopped peppers in the dining room and discussed their plans for the next few days — a party here and there, a benefit for May Day Books, the Livewire music and activist festival, the anti-war rally on Saturday and the May Day rally on Monday.

Gaylen strains some potatoes to be mashed.

Meanwhile, Rudi gave money to Rosie to go out and buy rice. “Leader” is too strong of a term for the group’s anarchist principles, but someone has to make sure everything goes as planned. Rudi, an American Studies major at Brooklyn College, has been “bottom-lining” since two Januarys ago. She started visiting ABC No Rio for their weekly punk shows. When her friend, who was in a punk band at the time, went on tour and passed the Food not Bombs job to Rudi’s roommates, they bailed at the last minute and asked Rudi to fill in. Since then, she’s only missed a handful of Fridays, which she blames on oversleeping.

Food Not Bombs will make a temporary move to St. Mark’s Church soon, Rudi said, while renovations are being done on ABC No Rio. After years of legal battles, the administrators at ABC No Rio purchased the building from the city last year, and work is needed to bring it up to code; Rudi pointed out a shoe-sized hole through to the ground floor next to the kitchen sink as a noteworthy issue, and other holes, dents and dilapidations could be seen throughout the building.

A new round of chopping began as another girl, Diane, arrived. Of the group, she had the most radical hairdo — chunks of it were variously shaded, and some of it was randomly clipped to the side of her head. She had been taking time off from The Gallatin School at NYU, and she wore a white shirt with ripped sleeves that said “I (heart) my adjunct professor” on the front. At a later event, she wore a hat that advertised “Balzac,” the balloon ball toy from the mid-90s. She grabbed a knife and chopped onions while Pat chopped garlic, two more items that had to be purchased, since Rudi said it was impossible to cook without them. In the kitchen, Rudi added the vegetables to a pot of tomato sauce. This stew would be added to the rice to create the stuffing for the peppers, which were soon to be placed in the oven.

An older guy with wavy blonde and gray hair named Roger arrived to drop off split pea soup. For the last three or four years, he’s been donating extra food from a local Catholic Worker community. He waxed nostalgic about anarchy in the old days, when the movement was small enough that everyone knew each other. Once the dining room table was clear of stems and stalks, Rudi asked Pat to carry the day’s trash down to the corner, warning him not to get busted for unauthorized dumping. Pat asked me to keep an eye out, but then rushed ahead to the west street corner. He only took a few steps before spotting an officer, and quickly turned around, muttering an expletive, and heading to the opposite end of the block, where he placed the bag down next to a city trash can — it would not fit inside.

The food was almost ready to go, so Pat stepped out behind the building to select a shopping cart from ABC No Rio’s courtyard, which was at least 25 feet wide and 50 feet long with graffiti on every wall. A city parks sign that once belonged to ABC Playground — “No Rio” was painted in between the two words — was wedged between two rusty window bars, but so much of the sign was suspended in air that it seemed a minor gust might dislodge it.

The group hauls the food to Tompkins Square Park. The sturdy undercarriage of the red cart is great for carrying bulky pantry items, like bread and crackers.

There were three shopping carts outside, but Pat had instructions to pick from the two larger ones: a silver cart from Waldbaums and a red cart of unknown origin. He selected the red cart for its sturdier undercarriage and brought it out to the street to load up. The group left ABC No Rio at around 4:15 p.m., pushing the cart packed with a tray of stuffed peppers, a bucket of leftover stuffing, a tub of split pea soup, some plastic bowls, plates and forks and an industrial size trash bag full of bread.

“We’re not really pro or con anything outwardly,” Rudi said on the way to the park. Some Food Not Bombs groups give out activist literature along with the meals, but the New York City group only focuses on food. “I guess what’s radical about Food Not Bombs is that we get everything for free, we cook it for free and we serve it for free. But the most radical thing is that we don’t ask anything of the people we serve it to.”

Legally, a permit is required to do this kind of work, and Rudi said that Food Not Bombs never bothered to get one, because doing so costs money. Besides, legit soup kitchens like the nearby Trinity’s Service and Food for the Homeless have to buy produce locally. Carolyn Williams, who runs the kitchen and pantry there (and who has sampled Food Not Bombs cuisine), said that she relies on monetary donations and an annual stipend from the state. Food Not Bombs, on the other hand, relies on what would otherwise have been thrown away.

Rudi admitted that the lack of permit and paperwork, the stolen shopping cart, the street dumping and the state of the kitchen means that almost every aspect of Food Not Bombs is illegal. They’ve gotten in trouble with police before, Rudi said, and on Sundays, which are busier than Fridays, food is served outside of the park.

Rudi gets the impression that the police don’t really want to come down hard on them, which isn’t always the case at other branches. Food Not Bombs’ website says that co-founder Keith McHenry has been arrested over 100 times for serving food. On a more extreme level, the Los Angeles Times reported in March that the FBI’s Denver office listed Food Not Bombs as an anarchist group that may be associated with terrorism.

The cart was wheeled up to the southeast side of the park near the chess tables — the usual spot, Rudi said. People were hanging around, and a tall man wearing a woolen newsboy hat, patchwork pants and one of those cowboy jackets with two-way curving arrows on the breasts walked over. “The apple of my eye!” he exclaimed, and gave Rudi a hug. She greeted him by name — Manny — as he examined the food.

While they were talking, an older woman with thick blonde and gray hair walked over to the cart, inspected the contents, grabbed a bowl and served herself. Rudi, Rosie and Diane started serving as people lined up by the shopping cart. Once the initial crowd was fed, Pat, Diane and Rosie took portions for themselves.

It was a beautiful, cloudless day, temperature in the mid-60s. Rudi said that Food Not Bombs serves all year, rain or shine. In the winter, not as many people volunteer, but not as many people are in the parks either.

A man with a duffle bag slung over his shoulder and a boom box in his hand walked over. He acted as if it was his duty to provide music, and as soon as Rudi acknowledged his presence, he punched the play button and heavy metal music blared. The man nodded slightly and stared off into the distance. I tried to talk to him, but he just looked back, confused. “I can’t hear you, man,” he said, pointing to the speakers, “It’s right in my face.”

As AC-DC screamed through the stereo, another man who called himself “Black Jaximus” complimented the music and growled a few comical poems about himself, his sexual exploits and his warrior prowess. Amused by the ramblings, the man with the boom box told Jaximus that he had two questions for him, “What are you on, and can I have some of it?” Jaximus explained that he was about to run to the liquor store, and that he was willing to share.

Rudi realizes that some of the people she feeds have drug and alcohol problems, but said that it wasn’t her place to judge them. “The people that we serve in the park don’t eat healthy food like that otherwise, they don’t eat vegetables or stuff that’s good for them. The best service I can give to them is to give them healthy food once a week, and then let them sort their own shit out.”

Some diners help themselves.

 

Homelessness hits home

The fragility of the American dream.

The intersection of Telegraph Avenue and Bancroft Way on the edge of the campus at the University of California at Berkeley.

At the corner of Telegraph and Bancroft sits a guy, cross-legged, as if he is meditating the countless pedestrians that rush by on their way to the University of California at Berkeley campus. The man has a dirty face, a scraggly beard, and tattered clothes. He is homeless; he needs a good bath, and a nice warm meal.

Yet none of the passersby seems to notice him, even though his life is just as sacred as that of the success-bound college students with their Cal–emblazoned gear and khaki shorts. If you listen carefully, you can hear this man utter a greeting and a “God bless you,” at times sounding more heartfelt than the President of the United States during the state of the union address. There may be wars being waged on other political and social fronts throughout the world, but here, there is none against homelessness and poverty.

When I came to this country eleven years ago, I was shocked by the sight of homeless people on the streets. In the Netherlands, few people are homeless, and those you do see lingering in the streets at night are probably homeless by choice. So coming here, I couldn’t help staring at homeless people out of fascination. Why were they living under bridges and in the corners of monumental buildings?

Hanging out outside Crepes-A-Go-Go in Berkeley.

“Look away, don’t make eye contact”

That was the usual advice, since the last thing you want to do is provoke a homeless man. He could be mentally ill, after all. “Don’t mess with homeless people,” was the mantra of indifference rooted in the perception that homeless people were probably there for a reason. So I looked away, and lived out the American dream in a quaint suburban house with an American husband and two blond cherubs, my Dutch-American children. On our trips into the city, I no longer stared at the toothless faces and the grimy hands that extended towards us from below on the sidewalks. I even told my children to look away and ignore the problem.

Homelessness was as far removed from our quiet middle-class lives as the moon is from the sun.

But then, on a glorious suburban day, our polished world caved in during the dot-com crash. Within months, we saw our reserves dwindle. Paying the bills became increasingly difficult. And after two and a half years of unemployment, scraping by on menial jobs and macaroni and cheese, I realized how easy it was to lose everything. Homelessness was not exclusive to the losers, the outcasts and the mentally ill. Homelessness could happen to boring suburbanites who hit a patch of bad karma.

People like us.

Seeing again

We still had a roof over our heads, but the future of our house and our health insurance were the demons that kept us awake. We anticipated the abyss, an abyss I had become all too familiar while helping out in a soup kitchen.

At first I was too busy helping out with the cooking and serving, but as these tasks became more routine, I had time to observe the haunted souls who dropped in. For the first time in years, I did not look away, but stared and registered.

There was a single mother with three children who should have been in school at that hour. They were all coughing, and although they were probably living out of their car or sleeping in a flee-infested shelter, the mother insisted on manners – the manners of a society that had completely abandoned them.

“Johnny, put your hand in front of your mouth when you cough.”

“Ellen, darling, use your napkin.”

“Paul, say ‘thank you.’ Now listen, let’s pray and thank the Lord for this
food.”

The children put their dirty hands over the white paper plates, closed their eyes and surrendered to the tranquil moment ordered by their mother. My eyes wandered off to a boy my son’s age who walked in alone. I filled his plate and asked whether his parents would be coming. He looked at me, both suspicious and afraid. The staff had instructed us not to ask questions.

The boy was silent, so I did not press him for an answer as to why he was there. I was curious though, and bringing a second dessert, I sat down with him and asked him about school.

“Don’t go to school much anymore,” he grumbled. “Both my parents work, but there is little food in the house, and my mother thinks it more important to come here. This is my first hot meal this week.”

At the end of the meal, I looked up as a woman walked in, impeccably dressed in a pearl necklace and high heels – the kind of woman one might expect to see in a bistro downtown. I shot a glance at our staff leader for the day, a Vietnam vet whose stories could fill the pages of a novel, although he never talks about the war. When the woman walked away to find a private corner – some of which carry a urine scent so heavy it made me gag, the staffer told me, “You know, we’re not here to judge. We’re here to feed. God knows where she’s at.”

“Maybe she lost her job and has to pay her parents’ nursing home bills, while also having to provide for her own family,” he added. “Judging is easy, feeding is a whole lot harder.”

As he said this, a man scraped the food off his plate into a plastic bag under his table and returned to fill up again. That was against the rules, but I didn’t report it, for that would have been a form of judging too. If the bag of food would tide him over for the rest of the day, I didn’t care about rules.

I struck up a conversation with a couple holding a newborn baby in their arms. They lived on the streets, but were remarkably upbeat for people who were raising a baby in the elements.

“We’re okay, really,” said the 19-year-old woman, whose eyes were bloodshot.

“The worst part is that people in the streets don’t look at us anymore,” she said. “They look away as if we’re dirty, or worse, as if we’re air. The baby attracts more attention, but as soon as we catch someone’s eye, they look away again. We might as well be dead.”

An elderly woman thanked us for the meal as she walked out. Her mouth had holes where her teeth should be. Her hair is a tangled web. And her T-shirt proclaims: “Proud to be an American.”

“Interesting T-shirt you’ve got there,” I said, unable to resist in this basement of America’s downtrodden. She caught my irony and said, “Honey, I never bought it. Got it second-hand. Don’t care much for the text, but I like the colors. God bless you.”

A month later my husband landed a job with a software company. We have slowly been able to crawl away from the snake pit of potential homelessness and hunger.

Now, I make eye contact with every homeless person I see.

And if I happen to be carrying food, I give some to the man who’s sitting at the intersection of Bancroft and Telegraph.

He is always grateful and has the grace to acknowledge me. He does so even when I don’t give him anything at all.

He’s just homeless, and still human.

 

Pretty much the coolest thing ever

Complete with soda, too much food, cake, and extended family, the pomp of the birthday celebration August 1 was the same as any other I’ve been to but the circumstance was different. It wasn’t my birthday, but it was the anniversary of the coolest thing that has ever happened to me. The coolest thing by far.

During the summer of ’05, I volunteered for an NGO in Kibera, one of the largest slums in Nairobi and East Africa. My project finished before the date of my departure, so much of my time was dedicated to letting children pet my milky skin, spending time with people, and doing my best to lighten the mood whenever inappropriate. Up to nothing of note, the head of the organization summoned my volunteer title and volunteered me to paint the clinic. Situated within the slum, the clinic provides basic health care on a sliding scale for residents of the community and was in the process of formal registration in the hopes of getting free vaccines from the government. Regulations stipulated that the clinic be white.

Replete with a coverall, paint and brushes, turpentine, no clue, drop clothes, and a foot stool, I set to work. Unlike my jokes or vague development lingo, painting the clinic was a tangible contribution. It made me feel good. The work I did in the clinic on August 1, 2005, however, made me feel even better.

Hopped up on turpentine fumes, I was brushing away, a veritable painting machine—the Arnold of slum clinic painting like you’d never believe. Most of the patients just stared at my like I was nuts. One patient was different, in far too much pain to notice the connect-the-dots pattern spackled on my face, eight centimeters preoccupied.

Another volunteer burst into my studio—“There is going to be a baby!” she effervesced. Flashing back to the “Miracle of Life” video in Mr. Aptekar’s class, my initial reaction was “eww.” Another couple of minutes, and I poked my head in to ask the nurse to ask the woman giving birth if it would be ok for me to sit in. She said yes. With the paint still on my face, I gloved up, put on a white coat, and did what I thought I was supposed to. “You are doing great momma,” I cooed in English to a Kiswahili-speaking woman in labor. She froze me with a look: “Shut up boy, this is not a sitcom, this is number six and the last,” curtly communicated her wrinkled face. My pit stains continued to grow.

I meant well but took the hint, content to hold her hand and wipe her forehead. With a strong push, there was another life in the world. In that moment, there was a presence in the room bigger than any individual—in the balance of the Earth, creation, destruction, life, death, I saw a child born. There was no conservation of mass in this equation. A new baby in the world, a new person. Slimy, gross, and more beautiful than anything I have ever seen, the recently converted amphibian was handed to me. Thirteen seconds old. My hands were quaking. A new person in the world, and I was holding him, before the mother, before the father, as he was taking his first breaths.

As the nurse focused on the mom, I focused on the baby, wrapping him in a sweatshirt, cleaning him up, in awe. Newborn topped with a hat, the mother in recovery holding her new son, I was now up to effervescing, writing the word “baby” all over the walls of my masterpiece—a best attempt at trapping a the enormity what just happened.

At the end of the day, exhausted, I cleaned up, washed my hands, got dressed, and went to thank the mother. Babbling in a mixture of English and almost Kiswahili, I told her thank you, thank you, and thank you, my best attempt failing again, unsure of what really just happened but knowing I was forever indebted to her sharing his birth with me.

“Asante sana, mother. I can’t thank you enough.”
“You’re welcome,” she said, in a tone of voice that told me how tired her soul was. HIV positive, like her husband, neither employed, there was now another mouth to feed.

“What is his name?”
She looked up at me, her eyes glowing, a smile more sincere than any I’ve ever seen. “Baby Aaron.”

August 1, 2006 was baby Aaron’s 1st birthday—happy birthday, baby Aaron.

Aaron Charlop-Powers

 

Witnessing war crimes

Just because the Israeli military warned the civilians of Qana to leave does not give it carte blanche to blindly attack.

Kenneth Roth, Executive Director of Human Rights Watch, speaking about the recent Israeli attack against the Lebanese in Qana, in which more than 54 Lebanese civilians were slaughtered, including at least 34 children.  Human Rights Watch warned that “consistent failure to distinguish combatants and civilians is a war crime.”  Although Israel suggested that there would be a temporary cessation of air raids after the bloody debacle at Qana, Israeli strikes continue to hail down upon Lebanon.
  
The Lebanese health minister puts the nation’s death toll at around 750 people, most of whom were civilians. 55 Israelis, including 19 civilians, have died in the mounting war.  Israel attacked Lebanon after Hezbollah — backed by Iran and Syria and based in Lebanon — captured two Israeli soldiers on July 12th.  

Mimi Hanaoka

  
  

 

A bird’s eye view

You can find meanness in the least of creatures, but when God made man the devil was at his elbow.

—Cormac McCarthy

George Carlin, on one of his albums, joked about the similarities between humans and chickens, eventually coming to the conclusion that chickens have some type of moral superiority over humans.  “Chickens,” he pointed out, “are decent people.”

A couple of days ago, I was sitting next to a window and, not long after the people at the table outside had gotten up, a bird flew over and knocked a half-eaten piece of bread onto the ground.  The bird took a few bites out of it and left, apparently satisfied.  Moments later, a group of smaller birds flew up to the same piece of bread to try and feed off of it.  There were about seven or eight of them and they were all concerned with the immediate gratification of satiating their hunger.  

What was interesting about their method of getting to the bread was that there didn’t appear to be a method.  I’m no ornithologist, but it looked like the birds were more or less just trying to get their share, other birds be damned.  Whichever one had tried to take it, and as soon as one dropped it, another one came in and tried to do the same.  Occasionally two would get a hold of opposite ends at the same time, and the result was clearly not as productive as the birds must have imagined.  

Now as people, we are better than these poor animals because somewhere along the evolutionary line, we developed language, reason, thought, and self awareness, among other things.  This mixture left us as the most advanced members of the animal kingdom, and ever since we have loudly proclaimed our supremacy.

Birds, not realizing that they are some of the unfortunate creatures that progress left behind, are simply guided by the laws of nature and have been relegated by humans to serve one of four basic functions: the foreground for movie sunsets, a hobby for naturalists, egg producers, or dinner.  And this is fine, since we’re a movie-loving, omnivorous bunch.  

What struck me while watching the birds fight over access to a piece of bread was that, although they are birds, the comparisons that can be drawn between bird behavior and human behavior are so obvious and still so strong.  Humans, as advanced as we are, always find ways to territorially fight amongst ourselves.  Do we use thought or reason to achieve compromise?  Certainly not as often as we could.  

If there’s a piece of land that two groups lay claim to, not only will each group fight for jurisdiction without making any concessions, but more sophisticated reasons like history, religion, and revenge will all become major factors, further complicating the issue.  At least chickens have the excuse that they’re chickens.

Which brings us back to George Carlin: maybe he was on to something here.

Mike Robustelli

 

Speaking of Lebanon

It’s very difficult to understand the kind of military tactics used by Israel. These are not surgical strikes but have caused death and misery to many innocent civilians.


Jack Straw, former British foreign secretary and current Leader of the House, speaking on Saturday, July 29th, about the Israeli massacres in Lebanon.

I think it needs to be clear that Israel is not in a hurry to have a cease-fire before we reach a situation in which we can say that we achieved the central goals that we set down for ourselves.


— Israeli Prime Minister Ehud Olmert, speaking on Sunday, July 30th, and defending Israeli attacks in the escalating war in Lebanon.

Action is needed now before many more children, women and men become casualties of a conflict over which they have no control.


Kofi Annan, UN Secretary General, condemning the most recent Israeli attack against the Lebanese in Qana, in which more than 54 Lebanese civilians were slaughtered, including at least 34 children. Annan implored the Security Council to condemn the Israeli attack on Qana. The U.S., a staunch Israeli ally and member of the Security Council, has defended Israel’s actions in the continuing 19-day war in Lebanon.  

The Lebanese health minister puts the nation’s death toll at around 750 people, most of whom were civilians. Fifty-one Israelis, including 18 civilians, have died in the mounting war.  Israel attacked Lebanon after Hezbollah — backed by Iran and Syria and based in Lebanon — captured two Israeli soldiers on July 12th.

Mimi Hanaoka

  

 

The courage not to choose

Continuing with some random thoughts on books, I want to say something about the writing of Thich Nhat Hanh, a Vietnamese Buddhist monk and longtime peace activist …

Continuing with some random thoughts on books, I want to say something about the writing of Thich Nhat Hanh, a Vietnamese Buddhist monk and longtime peace activist praised by the Rev. Martin Luther King Jr. for his work to end the Vietnam War. Peace Is Every Step is mostly concerned with bringing awareness to one’s everyday actions, but in it Hanh also makes the crucial connection between the particular and universal — that is, how our everyday choices between peace and violence end up influencing the very policies our society implements, the beliefs it tolerates, the wars it wages. Especially at this present time, with yet another grim conflict boiling over in the Middle East, Hanh’s lessons speak simply and eloquently to those of us who are tired of the perpetual cycle of violence.

When we come across any kind of conflict — an armed struggle overseas, a bitter political debate in the capitol, a sporting event on TV — we all have a desire to choose sides. This is natural. In fact, when it comes to sports, the entire point of the game is to root for your side. (Try watching two teams you’ve never heard of play and you’ll quickly see why.) “In wars we also pick sides, usually the side that is being threatened,” Hanh writes. “Peace movements are born of this feeling. We get angry, we shout, but rarely do we rise above all this to look at a conflict the way a mother would who is watching her two children fighting. She seeks only their reconciliation.”

In matters of war, an all-consuming partisanship may bring about peace in the short term — with the victory of one side — but the fighting does not cease. The losing side regroups and continues its struggle at another time, in another venue. The destruction resumes; the grievances pile up. The cycle only ends, Hanh says, when those involved are willing to recognize suffering on both sides and seek reconciliation.

Reconciliation opposes all forms of ambition, without taking sides. Most of us want to take sides in each encounter or conflict. We distinguish right from wrong based on partial evidence or hearsay. We need indignation in order to act, but even righteous, legitimate indignation is not enough. Our world does not lack people willing to throw themselves into action. What we need are people who are capable of loving, of not taking sides so that they can embrace the whole of reality.

The last point deserves repeating. History is the story of struggle, and yet throughout its long and ponderous expanse only a few recorded individuals have had the courage that Hanh speaks of — the courage not to choose sides, the courage to turn the other cheek when one’s own safety demanded a choice.

I’ll continue this discussion of Hanh’s writing in my next post.

Victor Tan Chen

Victor Tan Chen is In The Fray's editor in chief and the author of Cut Loose: Jobless and Hopeless in an Unfair Economy. Site: victortanchen.com | Facebook | Twitter: @victortanchen

 

A political prisoner?

It has been just over 31 years since two FBI agents were shot and killed on a South Dakota reservation while searching for a robbery suspect.  Their deaths lead to four arrests and one conviction — that of Leonard Peltier, the widely respected leader of the American Indian Movement (AIM).  

The combination of two dead FBI agents and a jailed cultural leader made this a fairly infamous case and, depending on whose side you listen to, Peltier is either a ruthless killer who wouldn’t hesitate to shoot an already wounded man from point blank range or an inspired leader wrongfully imprisoned because of the threat he posed.

Peter Matthiessen wrote a book about the incident entitled In the Spirit of Crazy Horse in which he described the history behind the shooting as well as the known facts of the case.  The arrest and subsequent prosecution of Peltier came to represent a people and their struggle to save their culture while merely surviving.  Matthiessen observed that “the ruthless persecution of Leonard Peltier had less to do with his own actions than with the underlying issues of history, racism, and economics, in particular Indian sovereignty claims and growing opposition to massive energy development on treaty lands and the dwindling reservations.”

Passion for these events still runs high years later, as seen in the petition on AIM’s current website and a CNN report from 2000, when Peltier was up for parole.  Louis Freeh of the FBI spoke of the crime’s “cold-blooded disregard for law and order” and how “the rule of law has continued to prevail over the emotion of the moment.”

Peltier, although saddened by the lives lost in the shooting, still professes his innocence and freely provides his thoughts on the subject:  “When you analyze this whole event of theirs, you are slapped in the face with the cold reality of racism.”

Looking back on injustices of the past is always easier than looking at those of the present, because…well, because they’re in the past.  Time and distance have softened the blows.  There is nothing to do except study them, acknowledge them, and vow not to make the same mistakes again.  

That is of course until the mistakes are repeated, leading to a period of acknowledgement and a vow not to make the same mistakes again.

We will never know whether or not Peltier is guilty of the crime he’s been convicted of unless somebody confesses.  We do know that where poverty and intolerance co-exist, crime will follow and things are not likely to get better from there.  

Individuals should not have to lose their lives to make the rest of us see what happens when these issues are ignored for too long.  One can hope that people from all walks of life learn from an occurrence like this, but that is still to be decided.

Mike Robustelli

 

Secular missionaries and a life disconnected

Experiencing turbulence, I awoke startled. Tired, cramped, I was ready to land in Kenya, but the map said we were just crossing over the Mediterranean. To my left snored a middle-aged man wearing a black shirt with bold orange letters that read: Baptists for Botswana.

Missionaries speckle the Kenyan landscape—roaming in Range Rovers, rivaling the cheetah population—wild creatures in their own right as they Bible-thump their way into the slums proselytizing predatorily on the starving poor, poaching tribal traditions towards the brink of extinction. Pentecostalism is the fastest growing religion in the world. Kenya is a Christian country. Most mission work that is done in East Africa is headquartered in Nairobi, the largest city between Cape Town and Cairo, the control center for thousands of sentinels seeking to civilize the barbarians, redeem them in Christ.

The presence of Christian missionaries is undeniable, but it is easily eclipsed by the bigger cars, budgets, houses, egos, and bolder t-shirts of the secular missionaries that occupy the gated neighborhoods surrounding the city center. Forget cheetahs—we are the wildebeest. Like the religious work that is headquartered here, any news agency, NGO, micro-credit scheme, fair trade organization, women’s empowerment group, or foundation has an East Africa office here. I am a disciple of the secular gospel, doling out condoms, pushing women’s rights, starting sustainable enterprise, empowering youth, in command of all the jargon, the development testaments new and old.

With a faith as strong as a Baptist for Botswana, I believe that the work I do is right, part of a larger plan that will help positively impact the lives of those same starving poor. I choose not to think of my work as predatory, but when I walk through Kibera on a Sunday and hear the sermons, revival meetings, and exorcisms my scoffing at religious mission work doesn’t make my white skin, my presence in the largest slum in East Africa any less obnoxious. Neither condoms nor communion are helping in the long term.

Both sets of missionaries are equally culpable, both to blame for the problems that aren’t fixed, for living a lifestyle that is entirely disharmonious, prowling the slums by day—be it to convert or to vaccinate—and eating $15-dollar meals by night before retreating to a gated compound. Doctrines aside, there is a common baseline that indicts missionaries of all belief systems. There are no simple solutions, and while both sides insist they are right and the other wrong, neither is consistent. Lifestyle is a choice. Inevitably, the most religious and the most secular, both passionate, live disconnected from the work they do, keeping them in business by driving, buying, living, socializing, drinking, and sleeping the system that causes the problems they work to solve.

Aaron Charlop-Powers

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