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Jellyfish conversations

On the search for adventure and my shoes.

Every time I visitFlorida, I lose my shoes.

I don’t know whythis is, but it happens every time I go. On my first trip to the SeminoleState – a high school spring break jaunt – I left a pair of tennisshoes under a bed in a hotel room. On my second stint – a brief layover before my brothers and I left for acruise – I fell asleep in the airport and awoke to find my shoes stolen,although my laptop, wallet and video camera were untouched.  I’m generally a pretty organized guy, yetwhen it comes to shoes and Florida, I seem to attain a nutty professorlevel of absent-mindedness.[1]

Driven and Determined

Thus, I wasdetermined not to lose anything as I dipped down into Gator Nation for a thirdtime.  Twenty-eight states into my48-state road trip, I was having a hard enough time not losing my mind.  This was the part of the trip when thenovelty of being on the road and doing something grand had subsided and wasbeing replaced by acute boredom and a growing realization that 12,000 miles reallyIS too far for one person to drive alone and retain their sanity.  This, coupled by my recent near-breakupwith my girlfriend[2]  had me desperately searching foranything resembling an “adventure,” just to fight the loneliness and keep mefrom throwing myself in front of oncoming traffic.

I settled on Pensacola [3],and rolled into the sleepy town just after dusk.  Finding no one around, I decided my “adventure” in Floridawould be to sleep right there on the empty beach, something I’d never donebefore and a far superior alternative to dozing in my sweltering Taurus.

Sand-Angels Are Useless AgainstEvil Jellyfish

I slept soundlythat night directly on the warm, bleach-white sand, contently dreaming that I’dfinally picked the perfect “road trip” thing to do – that is, until I wasawoken at 6 a.m. by a four-wheeler roaring by about three feet from myhead.  Of the many possible risks Iassumed when I decided to sleep on a beach, I admit I hadn’t anticipated thisone.

I climbed out ofmy panicked sand-angel and, adrenalized, figured I’d try to recover the morningwith a calming dip in the ocean.

I was promptlystung by a jellyfish.

At least I thinkit was a jellyfish[4].  I don’t have a particular phobia ofmalevolent ocean creatures, but there’s something deeply disconcerting aboutsomething squishy squirming its way up around your inner thigh and then stabbingyou.  Especially when you’re justbouncing innocently up and down in four feet of cloudy water.[5]

Whatever it was,it hurt like crazy, and by the time I scrambled out of the water, a nicefour-inch blotch had already appeared on the front of my pasty-white thigh.  As I raced across the sand, the onlythings I could think of were a) whether or not jellyfish were poisonous, and b)if so, what  was I going to doabout it.  For some reason the notionthat jellyfish poison might be counteracted with urine kept tumbling through mymind, but I couldn’t remember if this was for jellyfish or snakebites.[6]

I jumped into the Taurus,sopping wet and swelling, and peeled out to find the nearest hospital.

I was promptlypulled over by a cop. Of course.

The officer tookforever to saunter up to my window as I sat there, shirtless, wet andpanicked.  I should have been worriedthe cop would approach with his gun drawn, thinking he’d pulled over ahalf-drowned, naked meth addict. But mostly I was just worried that my leg was going to fall off.

Children are our future.Do they know how to cure jellyfish stings?

The tall cop leaneddown, resting his elbows casually on my open window.  “Kind of in a hurry there, aren’t ya?” he drawled from undera bushy, brown moustache.

Despite the factthat my quad was beginning to inflate like a pink balloon, I decided to arguethat I hadn’t been speeding. “Sorry, I thought the sign said 30, and I thought I was under.  I have this rule about speeding.[7]  Also, I’ve been stung by a jellyfish.”

The cop did notseem concerned.  “It’s a schoolzone, this time of the morning. Limit drops to 20.  Youdidn’t see the yellow sign?”

“I’m sorry, I musthave missed it,” I said.  My legwas throbbing, as if a small techno rave was forming inside it.  “Listen, is there a hospital somewherearound?“

“Also, fine’sdoubled in a school zone,” the cop continued.  “Lots of kids around.” He glared at me, accusingly, as if I’d been trying to run kids down onpurpose.

“I’m sorry, Ididn’t see any kids.  Butseriously, is-“

“LOTS of kidsaround,” the cop persisted, staring at me.  “You always drive like that, when there’s kids around?”

I looked up athim, not sure what answer he was looking for.  I wondered if he could smell the combination of fish andfear wafting up from the Taurus. “But I’ve been stung by a jellyfish!  And isn’t it summer?”

“Summerschool.  Aren’t as many kids asusual,” he admitted.  “But they’rethere, alright.  Lemme look at yourleg.”

Confounded, Ishowed him my leg, hesitant to mention that 6:30 a.m. seemed a bit early forsummer school.  The cop frowned, regardingmy puffy limb for a moment.  Hepopped his gum.

“It’s not toobad.  I’ll be back.”

Without anotherword, the cop went back to his car, and I was left in the Taurus, leg burning,salt beginning to soak into my now-dry skin.  Another eternity went by as I waited for the officer to return,presumably with a vial of jellyfish antidote that every Pensacola cop carriesin their car.  Instead, he cameback with a paper.

 “I’m giving you a warning,” hesaid.  “But if I catch you speedingthrough another school zone, I’m gonna drop the hammer on you.”  He handed me the paper.  “Children are our future.”

I didn’t know whatto say.  “Um… thanks?” I managed.  “But honestly, do I need to go to ahospital, or something?  Can youdie of a jellyfish sting?”

“I told you, it’snot bad,” said the cop, standing to his full height.  “You may not even have been stung by a jellyfish.”

And he was gone.

I started the Taurusand headed west.  I called Craig,my cancer-curing doctor friend in St. Louis, and he assured me that no, I wasnot going to die of a jellyfish sting.[8]  After an hour or so my leg stoppedthrobbing, and the swelling went away. As I entered Mobileand started looking for something interesting to do in Alabama, it occurred tome that I’d gotten my adventure in Florida after all.  And, for a few hours at least, I hadn’t been the least bitlonely.

And that’s when Irealized I’d left my shoes on the beach, back in Pensacola.

 

“The Jellyfish Cop” is an excerpt from “48 States in 48 Days,” abook by Paul Jury about a road trip he took to all 48 continental states oncehe graduated college and realized he had no plan.



[1] Perhaps it has something to do with partying too muchevery time I visit Florida. Nah.

[2] Who was notenthusiastic about my dodging her for eight weeks.

[3] Why Pensacola seemed like a good place for adventure,I don’t recall; I guess I’d recently seen the movie “Contact” and thought maybeI’d see Jodie Foster, or some aliens. 

[4] As a Minnesota boy, being stung by random crap in theocean was not something I had a lot of experience with.

[5]And it’s not like I was even attacking their jellyfish nest! Though thisvengeful thought would occur to me later.

[6]And the idea of laying sideways on the Pensacola sand peeing on myself seemedoddly inappropriate, even for someone who’d just slept on a beach.

[7] The rule was: I already had four of them on my record,and if I got one more, the Minnesota DMV had promised to tear up my license,something that seemed quite detrimental to a

48-state road trip.

                   [8] Did Imention it felt like my leg was going to fall off?

 

Independence day

Any day now.

 

Onan ordinary Wednesday morning, during one of her three-times-weekly dialysistreatments, which she calls her “dates with needles,” Janet Long’s doctor saidsomething she has not heard him say during the six years she has been living ondialysis waiting for the kidney transplant thatwill return her to independence: “My guess is that this is going to happen thissummer. I think you’ll get your transplant.”

 

AsDr. Raul Hernandez moved to the next patient in the next reclining chair andthe next set of vital signs on the screen above the machine with blood-filledtubes and a hemodialyzer, Melissa Miller, a registered nurse at the dialysiscenter, checked Long’s blood pressure reading.  She tells her she has heard Dr. Hernandez give only twoother predictions about transplantation to patients, both of whom weresuccessfully transplanted within weeks.

“Hewould know,” said Miller. “I don’t know how he does it. He just seems to know.”

Longsaid she was taken aback for a moment.

“I’mtrying not to get my hopes up, but that’s exciting,” said Long. “He does justcall it. I was here when he told the one he would get transplanted soon andthen he did. They called him at three in the morning, and that was it. He’snever said that to me before so he must know something. I could get my lifeback.”

Longsaid looking ahead to her day of independence from dialysis with a transplantedkidney feels “like a prisoner just being released from a sentence.”

“Ihaven’t been a part of the real world. I’ll be starting over,” said Long. “I’vebeen working as much as being on dialysis allows, part time, but I’ll have toreaccustom myself to nine to five and changing my schedule around to makesure my kids are taken care of. My priorities have changed while I’ve been aprisoner to dialysis. I’ll have a life again. You don’t go more than four dayswithout dialysis. It hinders a lot. You are very confined. I get no days off,no holidays. There’s no time off for good behavior. There is no break. I amhere three days a week for four and half hours.”

Ondialysis since December. 10, 2004, when she was diagnosed with kidney failure, Long isn’t certain of the cause. It waslikely either from frequent strep infections the busy human resourceprofessional said she was slow to treat or chronic hypertension.

“Ithought I had the flu,” said Long. “I had been sick with something — a virus,I thought — and I couldn’t shake it. I finally went to the hospital when Icouldn’t keep anything down and at about 1:30 in the morning, I found out. Theyinserted a temporary catheter and dialysis started immediately. I knew nothingabout dialysis. None of my family had problems. It was an awakening.Fortunately, Dr. Hernandez was very open and explained everything veryhonestly. He didn’t hold anything back. That man saved my life. He’s one of thereasons I’m here. He’s a wonderful doctor. I’ll be with him for the rest of mylife, even after transplant. He has fought for me and fought for me. If youdon’t do what he tells you, you are cut loose and I understand that and Irespect that. He’s made me fight for myself, for a transplant and to get mylife back. When he walked in that first time to see me, he got a little chokedup telling me that I was in kidney failure so young and with my boys to raise.That’s what you need in a doctor. He understands where I am in my life and whatI am up against. I feel very privileged to be one of his patients.”

Oncereleased from the hospital, Long looked for information on the Internet.

“Iscared myself simple,” she said. “I don’t think you can fully understand unlessyou are experiencing it as it goes. Reading about it doesn’t tell you enough.Dialysis three times a week takes your life over. I didn’t realize how brutalit was going to be. I wasn’t used to sitting around for a long time and I don’twatch a lot of TV but that’s pretty much all you can do. I don’t sleep wellhere. Some people can, but not me. I have a full, busy life waiting for me to getout of here and live, so I get anxious. They tell you that you might have todeal with depression, but I don’t get depressed much. I have a little breakdownabout once every six months and have to get angry and cry it out and then Imove forward. It turns your whole life around. The waiting and the uncertaintyis really hard.”

TheWaiting Game

Longis far from being alone. Nationally, according to the NationalKidney Foundation, the waiting list for kidney transplants hit 100,000for the first time in 2009. To put that number in perspective, it would be asif the entire population of Green Bay, Wisconsin, were in need of a kidneytransplant. More than 4,000 are added to the waiting list each month and sadly,there will be some who die while waiting for their gift of life.

The National Kidney Foundation has launched acomprehensive initiative that aims to end the wait list over the next 10 years.Encouraging donor registries, increasing both living donations and deceasedones and eliminating barriers are part of the mission of End the Wait, whichhas been endorsed by the United Network for OrganSharing.

Longmeets the criteria to be put on the waiting list for a donated kidney, joiningmore than 11,000 in her home state of Ohio. She understands having an O+ blood type often means a longer wait on the list, sincecandidates with an O blood type can only receivean O type donation. Because type O’s are universal donors, it is less typespecific for those in need of donated organs and tissues.

Morepositively, though, advances in organ procurement techniques are making livingdonation a more viable option and recipient survival rates have improvedsignificantly. The National Kidney Foundation reports97.96 percent of transplant recipients from living donors survive one yearafter transplant and from cadaveric donors, 94.4 percent.

Livingdonors now undergo a simpler surgery than before with laparoscopic nephrectomy. In this procedure, a laparoscope is inserted intothe abdomen allowing the surgeon to see and operate, making severalsmall incisions in the abdomen, called "ports," to allowinsertion of a laparoscope and other instruments. The camera and instrumentsare used to cut the kidney away from surrounding tissue after clamping off thearteries and ureter. The kidney is removed through an incision below the bellybutton.

Hernandezsaid the recovery time from this surgery is much shorter, with fewer long-termcomplications for the living donors.

“Thesurgery for donating is much simpler now because they do it laparoscopic,” saidHernandez. “They’re back to work sometimes in three to five days.”

Hernandezsaid the quality of life for transplanted patients is vastly improved when theycan be freed from dialysis.

“Ihave over a hundred transplant patients,” he said. “I’ve got as many transplantpatients as anywhere in the state. I’d rather transplant them all. I’d preferthat to coming in to a dialysis center. This is the part of my job I don’tlike.”

MelissaMiller comes into work every day at the dialysis center as a registered nurseon the front line for both the patients waiting for transplant and for thosewho don’t meet the criteria, who will live out their lives on dialysis.

“Ofcourse I wish they could all be transplanted, too, but I’m here for them,” saidMiller, who added that switching gears between patients and maintainingprofessional boundaries is often hard. “I was drawn to working here becauseI’ve had problems with my kidneys in the past. I didn’t have problems to theextent that these patients do, but I think my experience gave me a betterunderstanding of what they go through. I’m happy here, but sometimes it’s hardnot to take your work with you when you go home. You really get to know yourpatients in this setting. You know about their life and they know about yours.It’s a relationship. You celebrate with them when things are going well andyou’re happy when they are one of the lucky ones who get transplanted and theyget their life back. At the same time, you miss them when they don’t have to behere anymore. When things go wrong and they can get really bad really quickly,you have to be able to react professionally. You take an individual directionwith each patient on a day to day basis. You get attached and it would beeasier to just be technically focused, you know, put them on treatment, takethem off treatment and watch their numbers. It’s hard to separate yourself fromthe work and you take it to heart. That’s what it’s all about, though, intaking a holistic approach to nursing, you have to take the whole person intoconsideration and you have to be able to get in touch with who they are andcare about them all as if they were family. It becomes a way of life. I got alittle teary hearing what Dr. Hernandez told Janet this morning. I want thisfor her so much, even though I’ll miss taking care of her and being with her.”

AFamily Affair

Nowhaving helped her father to the other side of dependence on dialysis, RachelYoung had watched as her father’s health and options while living on dialysisdwindled.

“Atfirst he didn’t want either one of us, me or my sister, to have anything to dowith being tested,” said Young. “He was apprehensive, and when a couple otherpeople were tested and nothing came of it, he was put on the waiting list. Hewas on home dialysis five times a day and he was beginning to really get sick.He was told that it could be two or three years before it was likely that hewould get a transplant. At that point in time, I said that it didn’t matter ifhe liked the idea or not, I was going to get tested.”

Youngsaid she was free from any ties, unlike her sister who is a mother to a littlegirl.

“Isaid, let me go ahead and see if I’m a match and we would go from there,” saidYoung.

Thetesting process is exhaustive, Young explained, and took months to complete. Inthe end, she was a match for her father.

“Itwas hard not knowing if I was going to be a match,” she said. “That was harderthan the surgery itself. The team at Ohio State won’t look at doing it unlessthey think there’s an almost 100 percent chance that things are going to gowell and you’re going to recover fully. It was an emotional rollercoaster, thatnot knowing and the ups and the downs of the unknown.”

Younglearned she was a match on a Monday and the surgery was performed just fourdays later on Friday morning.

“Upuntil a few days before, I wasn’t sure yet that I was a good match,” she said.“That was probably the hardest thing of everything overall that I had to dealwith. Once I knew, the doctors answered all my questions and really helped putme at ease. They said I would fully recover and I would be able to lead anormal life. Other than only being able to take Tylenol for pain becauseibuprofen and a lot of the other drugs are hard on your kidneys, there weren’ta lot of stipulations. The surgery went really well. I woke up and wascomfortable and very aware of my surroundings. I got back on my feet reallyquickly.”

Oneof the first things Young did was to go down the hall and see how her dad wasdoing.

“Itwas amazing how quickly I recovered,” she said. “I had pain but it wasmanageable. I was there when my dad came out of surgery and I was able to seehim. It was great. He was doing really well.”

Youngwas discharged from the hospital on the Sunday of that same weekend, and herrecovery was uneventful.

“Thereis an initial shock as the remaining kidney and your liver adjust to the onekidney being gone, but overall, I felt pretty good,” she said. “I took my timerecovering at home and did a lot of sleeping. I was off of pain medication inthat first week and able to drive after two weeks.”

Youngsaid she and her father had a close relationship before, but the surgerybrought them even closer.

“Wewere close to begin with, but now he makes sure to thank me every time he talksto me, every time he emails me or calls me,” she said. “At first I think he hadsome guilt about having me do this. It wasn’t up to him, though. He had nochoice in what I was going to do. I was going to do it and that was it. It wasdefinitely hard for him.”

Youngsaid her father is doing well now.

“He’sdoing great,” she explained. “His levels are mostly back to normal. They are alittle high, but for his condition, they are where they need to be. They arereally happy with his recovery. He’s golfing now, he’s doing all his own yardwork and he’s working full time again. He bounced back and he looks ten yearsyounger. He looks and acts totally brand new.”

Uncomfortablebeing labeled as a hero for her decision to donate her kidney, Young said sheis happy to talk to anyone considering living donation.

“Mydad and I joke that now he owes me for life, but that’s not really how I seeit. It was the only choice I could make,” she said. “We had a lot of talksabout this and he said that he would have done the same in my situation. I hopemy story can educate people and encourage organ donation,either way, living or not. Many people talk about the guilt associated withneeding an organ that would come from someone who had passed on. So many thatI’ve talked to through the donor network have said that it gave meaning totheir loved one’s passing, that something good came out of it. That’s somethingthat’s hard to understand, especially if you are the one that is needing thatgift of life and you aren’t used to having to ask for anything. If you aren’tcomfortable checking the box on your driver’s license, then do talk to yourfamily because ultimately it comes down to something happening to you; theywill have to know and make that decision. It’s a great thing. For me, I don’tthink anything of that whole hero thing; I just know that it is something thatso many people would do in the same situation. It’s just something that you cando for someone that you care about and there’s a real need.”

StillWaiting

WhileJanet Long waits for her day of independence from dialysis, she keeps the donorbox on her license checked.

“Imade that decision a year before I found out what was going on with me,” saidLong. “I don’t know why I hadn’t done it before, but I just decided that ifsomething was to happen to me, that someone should benefit. It’s still checked.Even now, there is still something on me that someone could use and ifsomething happens to me, I’ll want that. I don’t know what made me change mymind, but I chose to check that box and I won’t uncheck it. I can only imaginewhat it feels like to receive an organ or how somebody feels when one isoffered, but just the idea that somebody would want to do that, to make that giftis overwhelming. The idea that there is something like that for me and thatsomeone will make that gift and give me my life and my independence back haschanged me. I know I’ll get there. You just can’t give up.”

 

 

Another Book for Obama?

Uruguayan writer Eduardo Galeano seeks to rescue history and reclaim truth-telling

 

In April 2009, at the Summit of the Americas in Trinidad and Tobago, Venezuela’s President Hugo Chavez handed President Barack Obama a copy of Open Veins of Latin America: Five Centuries of the Pillage of a Continent by Uruguayan writer Eduardo Galeano. Published in 1971, this treatise details the history of European colonization of Latin America and argues that the United States has exercised a negative influence in the region throughout recent times.

Obama might now want to consider adding Galeano’s latest work—Mirrors: Stories of Almost Everyone, translated from the Spanish by Mark Fried—to his library.

A provocative and wholly original interpretation of human history, Mirrors consists of nearly 600 vignettes and succinct essays written in a meditative prose that leaves oneyou virtually breathless for its beauty and piquancy. Galeano’s writing style, which lilts in rhythmic back-and-forth exposition, then culminates into a final, salient point, parallels Gabriel García Márquez and John Dos Passos. However, neither magical realism nor surrealism is at work here—realism is.

Galeano believes the authentic history of mankind has been falsified by convention and the élites who retain ultimate authority over what is to be remembered, recorded, and propagated. His task is to unveil the realities of human existence that impact and form our shared identity throughout time—be they love, war, racism, creativity, repression, poverty, valor, prosperity, knowledge, diversity, death, memory, tyranny, or contentment.

Make no mistake, though. Mirrors is no easy stroll through the annals of centuries-old, oft-told chronicles of our past. While it offers moments of lightheartedness, it’s mostly a solemn book, free of smug congratulations, exalting the integrity of humankind. Galeano demands that the historical record be viewed through a revisionist lens, wresting history from its glut of constraining inaccuracies to reclaim truth-telling and exactitude.

In doing so, he creates a masterwork of mosaics. Stories of Harriet Tubman; Ho Chi Minh; Murasaki Shikibu and Sei Shōnagon, female Japanese writers whose novels "share the rare honor of being praised a millennium after the fact;" Hollywood; Vermeer; Queen Juana of Castile; Lenin; the Marquis de Sade; the Barbie doll; "outlawed writer" Isaac Babel; Peruvian liberator Túpac Amaru; Darwin; King Midas of Phrygia; Jomo Kenyatta; ITT, BMW, and IBM; Aphrodite and Apollo; and U.S. Secretary of State Dean Acheson appear in a wondrous and seemingly endless procession of people, places, epochs, and events.

You have to marvel at Mirrors’ magnitude and Galeano’s dexterity. In the space of a ten- to fifteen-line narrative, he constructs scene, personhood, and a moment in time with precise poetic finesse and pieces together the magnificence and savagery of our "human adventure" here on Earth. Here are examples of Galeano’s thrifty, yet profound style:

“Word Smugglers”

    Yang Huanyi, whose feet were crippled in infancy, stumbled through life until the autumn of the year 2004, when she died just shy of her hundredth birthday.
    She was the last to know Nushu, the secret language of Chinese women.
    Their female code dated from ancient times. Barred from male language, which they could not write, women founded a clandestine one, out of men’s reach. Fated to be illiterate, they invented an alphabet of symbols that masqueraded as decorations and was indecipherable to the eyes of their masters.
    Women sketched their words on garments and fans. The hands that embroidered were not free. The symbols were.

“Resurrection of Camille”

    The family declared her insane and had her committed.
    Camille Claudel spent the last thirty years of her life in an asylum; held captive.
    It was for her own good, they said.
    In the asylum, a freezing prison, she refused to sketch or sculpt.
    Her mother and her sister never visited her.
    Once in a while her brother, Paul the saint, turned up.
    When Camille the sinner died, no one claimed her body.
    It was years before the world discovered that Camille had been more than the humiliated lover of Auguste Rodin.
    Nearly half a century after her death, her works came back to life. They traveled and they astonished: bronze that dances, marble that cries, stone that loves. In Tokyo, the blind asked and were allowed to touch the sculptures. They said the figures breathed.

    Mirrors follows a chronology—beginning with the delightfully paradoxical "Origin Of Man"—but doesn’t adhere to a fixed timeline. In story after story, you learn about acts of virtue and contributions to cultural identity that aren’t commonly known or valued, because they’ve been "rewarded with collective amnesia." "Legacy Denied" describes the eight-centuries-old "Muslim legacy" left behind by the Moors in Spain, "whose culture shone there as nowhere else" and of which "[m]any Spaniards know nothing." "Another Missing Father" tells of forgotten founding father Robert Carter and the freeing of his 450 slaves 70 years before the abolition of slavery, a deed that "condemned him to solitude and oblivion."

And the attribute that may be most praiseworthy—that forces Mirrors to poke at your conscience and stay in your memory long after you’ve finished its last entry—is the way Galeano fuses past and present to demonstrate that there’s no veering away from time’s continuum. The present is molded from the past, just as the future is the fusion of every moment that precedes it:

“Guernica”

    Paris, spring of 1937: Pablo Picasso wakes up and reads.
    He reads the newspaper while having breakfast in his studio.
    His coffee grows cold in the cup.
    German planes have razed the city of Guernica. For three hours the Nazi air force chased and machine-gunned people fleeing the burning city.
    General Franco insists that Guernica has been set aflame by Asturian dynamiters and Basque pyromaniacs from the ranks of the Communists.
    Two years later in Madrid, Wolfram von Richthofen, commander of the German forces in Spain, sits beside Franco at the victory parade: killings Spaniards was Hitler’s rehearsal for his impending world war.
    Many years later in New York, Colin Powell makes a speech at the United Nations to announce the imminent annihilation of Iraq.
    While he speaks, the back of the room is hidden from view, Guernica is hidden from view. The reproduction of Picasso’s painting, which hangs there, is concealed by an enormous blue cloth.
    UN officials decided it was not the most appropriate backdrop for the proclamation of a new round of butchery.

 

The two Sanyas

Whose choice is it?

Determined to Find Paradise
A prominent British travel writer advised me several weeks ago to never begin any travel narrative with the destination’s airport. But in Sanya, a city in China’s Hainan province, its Phoenix International Airport announces the city’s aspirations to all its guests. Renovations in 2004 replaced concrete walls with teak paneling, a steamed bun diner with an al fresco cafe, and fluorescent lighting with a Plexiglas roof. Intricately carved details in the airport’s design suggest Balinese handiwork, like the carved wood pineapple, twice the airport’s height, which looms over the arrivals area. Natural light that shines through the roof’s glass slabs illuminates the eager faces of the mostly Russian and Chinese tourists waiting. I sympathize with their impatience.  One weekend is all I have to soak up the sun in my bikini while sipping on a tropical cocktail, as a warm sea breeze plays with my hair. Armed with straw hats and sunglasses, my fellow travelers and I are determined to get a taste of tropical paradise.

 

Tail of the Dragon

It is ironic then that Hainan was considered a backwater province during various dynasties in Chinese history. Previously known as the “tail of the dragon,” Hainan was a secluded region to which subversive poets like the Song dynasty’s Su Dongpo and ousted officials like Tang dynasty prime minister Lin Deyu were banished. Lin once dubbed Hainan “the gate of hell.” Away from cities and trading centers, the island was populated by aborigines and ethnic minority tribes who most Han Chinese distrusted and considered primitive. Dense, snake-infested forests, humid weather, and scorching heat made it a nightmare to live in, in an age before bulldozers, air-conditioning, and hygienic precautions helped ward off communicable tropical diseases like malaria.  Standing on a beach whose name translates to “the end of the sky and ocean,” it is easy to imagine early settlers thinking of this place as the edge of the earth.

 

There Is Always Room for More

The Chinese government saw potential in the island as early as 1955, when a Communist Party Committee member called the island “a treasure island.”   Today, billboard after billboard of glamorous real estate advertisements line the roads from the airport to downtown. The developments have names like Palmera, Twilight Lagoon, Sanya Peninsula Town, South Bay — “Hainan” literally translates to South Sea. Chinese actress and international star Zhang Ziyi adorns one such billboard. “It’s my choice,” reads the caption under her smiling, sun-kissed face. Closer to the city, shiny residential apartment blocks sprout from the concrete. Most of their units look empty. I ask my cab driver, Sun (pronounced "soon"), if there are more apartments than buyers.

He is quick to respond, "There are always many buyers." Sun is thinking of investing in some real estate himself when he has saved enough. “But it’s difficult,” he says, “prices keep going up… Where are locals supposed to stay?” 

When we reach the Sheraton, he gives my companion, Ray, a card with a list of tourist attractions and his number on it. He says to call him if we leave Yalong Bay to go sightseeing. He can give us a “special rate”. We nod.

Fitting In

The overcast sky looks unpromising, and the weather is colder than we expected, but we are intent on lounging by the beach as soon as possible. On our way to our suite, we pass a fair-skinned mother and daughter in identical floppy sun hats speaking Uighur to each other. The suite’s tiled floor and generous sitting area reminds me of our Westin room in Macao nine months ago. The Chinese flag across from our window flaps in the breeze. Yalong bay’s private beaches are exquisite in the way most private beaches are exquisite: clean sand, clear water, designated lounging areas that suggest the hotel guest need do nothing but relax and be pampered.
The Sheraton’s stretch of sand is dotted with cushioned deck chairs under umbrellas, and the waitstaff serves cocktails, fresh coconut juice, and a variety of snacks like nachos and Buffalo wings. A Russian couple, one in a black bikini and the other in trunks, are whistled out of the water for swimming in an unrestricted zone. Upon entering the water and walking to knee-level twice, Ray holds his breath and charges into the cold waves. We could be on any beach, anywhere, I think to myself, before a woman with a northern accent rolls her r’s at a man trying to take her photograph, adjusting the collar of her pink polo shirt. A Chinese toddler a few chairs down from me leaps from beach chair to beach chair, punctuating each jump with a war cry, to the delight of his grandmother. A family glides past on electric Segways.  I wave at Ray and take another sip of coconut juice before continuing to read, curled up in sweat pants and a leather jacket under a beach blanket, a T-shirt over my bikini top. The wind blowing my hair back feels more like a chilly monsoon heralding rain than my much-hoped for warm sea breeze. This is not how I’d imagined my tropical getaway from Hong Kong. My reading is interrupted by a tanned woman dangling a long string of pearls in front of me. She wears black trousers, a black vest over her printed button-down shirt, and a scarf in her hair, unlike the T-shirt and capris-clad tourists around me. She seems to be an ethnic minority; I can’t identify her accent. She walks up and down the beach hawking her pearls to supine tourists, exchanging glares with the Sheraton staff, who tell her to leave the area.

 

Amalgamation

For dinner, we decide to venture downtown, exiting our tourist safe haven. The city is half an hour from Yalong Bay by cab. We are advised to walk down the pedestrian street off Jie Fang Lu, or Liberation Road. The pedestrian street is busy and neon sign-lined, like Beijing’s Wang Fu Jing and Shanghai’s Nan Jing Lu. I didn’t expect Sanya to resemble other Chinese cities in this regard. Impressed by the number of Uighur Muslim food options available, we feast on lamb skewers, sauteed vegetables, and papaya juice. We ask our tired-looking waitress about Hainanese chicken rice, and she says immediately we are thinking of Wenchang chicken, named after a city in Hainan. According to her, the version of Hainanese chicken rice Ray and I are familiar with, which is from Singapore and Malaysia, also has elements of Cantonese cooking. It seems she has answered this question before. She speaks to us in the same accented Chinese the peddler of pearls used, and talks to another waitress in another language.

After poking around a store selling Hangzhou merchandise, Ray and I decide to call it a night and get a cab. We wait five minutes at the bustling entrance to Jie Fang Lu for a cab. Five minutes turns to ten, ten to fifteen. We walk down the main road with our arms out. We wait at the entrance of a pink and orange Bahama Hotel.

Where have all the taxis gone? It seems China’s rising middle class. that celebrated target market discussed in business publications around the world, becomes a running joke between Ray and me. China’s rising middle class is to blame for the disappointing weather, the greasy food, the noisy construction. We finally grab a taxi dropping passengers off downtown and hurry back into the embrace of our five-star hotel suite, sorry to have ever left.

 

Another Try

The next day, we lunch at the nearby Ritz, where we are given fortune cookies. Having never eaten fortune cookies on the mainland, I break mine open to read the paper strip: "Celebrate a special occasion at Sophia." We find out from a waiter Sophia is a restaurant in the Ritz That night, we stay at the Banyan Tree. Our pool villa’s layout makes it even easier than before to spend all day within the hotel’s confines, away from the Sanya we encountered last night, the local Sanya with its local businesses and local consumers. We ask the concierge about restaurants and dining nearby. We’re told Da Dong Hai has candlelit restaurants by the beach and is good for barbecued food. It sounds romantic. On the way there, we see a green and yellow Subwave Deli sign, an ostentatious building with Roman pillars called Royal International Club, and a surprising number of Cyrillic signs. We step out of the cab to hear a blasting mix of European techno, Backstreet Boys, and Chinese karaoke. “Everybody, rock your body…” Music emanates from a fun fair, which consists of a Viking ship, a reverse catapult,and apprehensive tourists lining up to try a ride called "Crazy Wave" that looks nauseating. The announcer’s voice drowns out the screams of roller coaster riders. I can’t tell if he is speaking Chinese or English. He sounds like a Chinese rapper.

 

Where Two Roads Meet

We pick the restaurant playing European techno music over the one with a karaoke bar. CCCP/USSR is one of the many businesses in Sanya that caters to Russian tourists. Its signboard and menu is in Cyrillic; its menu includes Russian borscht, skewered meat on sticks, and standard Chinese fare. Its unfriendly waitress gets impatient with our indecision. As we vacillate between barbecued lamb and hot plate egg tofu, mosquitoes feast on my legs—I  should not have worn dark colors. A series of peddlers wander by. One of them tries to persuade Ray to buy me a bouquet of red cellophane roses wrapped in pink and green tissue paper. "Buy a bouquet for your lady."

When Ray says, "No thank you," she turns to me smiling sweetly and offers the bouquet.

"Pretty flowers for a pretty girl."

I smile back, but it takes a while to shake her off. When she thinks we’re not looking, she makes a face. I watch her saunter into the dark. As we tuck into the hot plate egg tofu, a man belts out a Mandarin power ballad from the ‘90s in the nearby karaoke bar. His tour group applauds at the end of the song. Here, it seems, is where the two Sanyas meet.

The sun comes out on our last day. Sapphire skies remind us why we were excited about our trip to begin with. Instead of deck chairs, the Banyan Tree has beach beds—full mattresses on bamboo frames and gauze curtains. Across the way, in place of buildings or another forested bay, is the horizon, kissing the blue water. The tide comes in. We could be on any beach anywhere, I think to myself. It recedes.

Making a Choice

As Ray and I wait to board our afternoon flight home, a strange melody makes its way through the departures hall. It comes from a store selling remote control cars, bikes, and other memorabilia not specific to Sanya. While speaking to a father and son, the store’s sales assistant gestures absently at a Barbie doll seated behind a Ken doll in matching white-and-lime green track suits. They are on an indigo bike with training wheels, which is playing the eerie, chiming melody in a minor key. Round and round they go. The dolls’ smiles remind me of Zhang Ziyi in the real estate advertisement, but without the caption that reads, It’s my choice.

 

An uncle breaks the silence

Evolution of an illness

The greasy dishes pile onto our long narrow table at the Thai restaurant in Queens. We are celebrating the college graduation of my cousin Jeffrey, sitting across from me; the 70th birthday of my father, sitting beside me; and the 60th birthday of my uncle, sitting at the opposite end of the table, where I prefer him. My brother, sister-in-law, and aunt and uncle from my mother’s side are here too. Another glass of wine is poured, and someone asks my uncle if he wants to say something. I realize this is his cue to make a speech. After sitting through much of the meal in silence, he lets out a frail voice in accented English, his cheeks pulled into a smile so forced, it must be sincere.

A family dinner with my uncle is a rare occurrence, even though he lives with my mother and father in the apartment where I was raised. He usually makes every effort not to be inside the house when my parents have dinner, perhaps because he thinks eating their food is the one burden he can spare them.

Evolution of an Illness

Since he came to live with us several years ago, my uncle’s presence has evolved from a crisis to a quiet nuisance. These days, he spends most of his limited energy trying to make himself easy to ignore. He takes long walks, returning late at night with his grim, loping gait. He sleeps most of the day. Or when he is anxious, he may lie awake in his dark room for hours on damp sheets.

In return for his efforts to imitate old furniture, my parents accept his sickness and accept he will not get better. That’s more than many in our family are willing to admit, as evidenced by the boxes of vitamins and herbal supplements that have piled up in his room, sent by other relatives with notes of courteous concern.

Though his presence is irksome, my parents know we’re relatively lucky, because my uncle’s illness is not the kind that leads to violent outbursts or deep hallucinations. For years, his medication simply deadened his mind into a state of near-catatonia, underscored by the 40-some-odd pounds he put on as a side effect of the drugs. His brain has limbered up somewhat recently since he started taking a different pill. But his other main symptom remains: his silence, the invasive hush hovering over the apartment like a quivering moth.

While the family’s social contract with my uncle has brought quiet resignation, his diagnosis has helped us make sense of him—more to our benefit than to his. Until then, no one quite knew why, for as long as anyone could remember, he had refused to show any degree of warmth toward other human beings. During his marriage, faint hints of the crisis surfaced at quickening intervals. My uncle’s wife sometimes confided in my parents about his cruel detachment and revealed how, contrary to his family’s hopes, marriage had failed to cure him of his coldness. Jeffrey grew up learning how to ignore and be ignored by his father.

Later, no one could explain why my uncle avoided my grandfather as he lay on his death bed, despite his wish to see his youngest son before expiring, as if a final visit would redeem some of the shame of not raising him right. He was the shame of a proud family that, despite having survived war and poverty and revolution, somehow just couldn’t fix this one ingrate son.

Finding a Language

We issued our own diagnosis first: guai, a catch-all Chinese phrase for weird, strange, and deviant. My parents chalked up his withdrawn nature to a mixture of apathy and a flawed personality. They tried to push him to be a better husband, to be more responsible and affectionate. But after the divorce and the loss of his dead-end office job, not too long after September 11, when he dissolved into babbling paranoia and refused to come out of his apartment for days, and soon had to be forcibly removed and committed to Bellevue… at that point, guai no longer sufficed. 

There is a term for schizophrenia in Chinese, but it doesn’t carry the same currency as it does in English. Like the disease itself, it doesn’t translate well.

My uncle was more talkative when he first arrived from the hospital. Though the paranoia had eased by then, fear would well up in him at night, and he had a habit of jumping out of bed to kneel and pray for forgiveness before my grandfather’s framed photograph in the living room.

Between his convulsions of guilt, my uncle complained. His grumblings were as bland and monotonous as his spirit, but still they ground down my parents’ nerves. He griped about constant insomnia, or about feeling ill and weak with some un-diagnosable ailment. He pestered my parents to give him a job at their store, insisting this would relieve his restlessness. He worried that Jeffrey wasn’t doing all his homework, that Jeffrey’s hair was too long, that Jeffrey would catch a cold because he didn’t wear a hat, and that his mother wasn’t keeping a careful eye on him.

But no, when we asked him in exasperation, he wouldn’t call or meet with his son, or visit him at college. Just as he refused to change his pants or get a haircut.  He deflected anger with blankness. Over time, the complaints ebbed into silence, and we didn’t miss his voice.

Today, the disturbance has calmed down to a low growl, the white noise we’ve all learned to block out. I often pass him on the street in my neighborhood and scarcely make eye contact, rather I let him fade into the city’s anonymous backdrop.  Perhaps in another context this would be a sign of family dysfunction. But the dividend we extract from my uncle’s dependency is the convenient assumption that whatever is wrong with our collective relationship, it is always wrong with him.

My uncle has taught my family a new language of avoidance. My mother and father cope in creative ways. They assign him rote tasks: watering the plants or doing sit-ups before bed. At times, they seem to relish yelling at him—about his reluctance to shower and shave; his fatness; the sweat that beads up on his greasy forehead because he wears long sleeves and sweaters regardless of the weather; and how he eats the same dull breakfast every day, bread and milk, like he’s still institutionalized. With almost puerile vigor, they’ve teased him about his various tics—the tuneless humming under his breath when he chews, the involuntary muscle contractions rocking him back and forth and making him limply stroke his belly, as if strumming a guitar.
 
I no longer see the point in trying to convince my parents this kind of treatment is not very therapeutic for schizophrenia patients. I know it provides a cathartic outlet as they struggle to fit him into a half-lit corner of their lives. And I’m not entitled to criticize; I yell at him too sometimes, after all. And unlike them, I don’t have to breathe the stifling air his illness seeps into their home each day.

My mother sometimes lashes out with subtle hostility. Over dinner, she’ll yell at him for being too timid in reaching out for the fish on the far end of the table—she hates his craven reluctance to ask for anything, as if he’s afraid of becoming emotionally indebted to us. One night she denounced him for not visiting an ailing relative, reminding him of how he abandoned his own parents, and the withering denouncement prompted him to make the trip. Mostly, she rages against his less consequential tics: She’s excoriated him once for not throwing away the box for the tube of toothpaste. Normal people don’t leave open toothpaste boxes; they throw them in the trash. My uncle would generally say nothing and comply, but it isn’t the nonsensical habits that bothered her, but the indifference, the emotional opacity, that gives him an unnerving leverage over us.

My father focuses on keeping my uncle occupied. He urges him to write Chinese calligraphy each day as a form of therapy. Lately, my uncle has become somewhat livelier and talkative—we think it’s because he switched medications—and the recommendations have become more ambitious. My uncle now writes regular diary entries, which my father sometimes reads to monitor his progress. When my father encouraged his brother half-seriously to take martial arts classes with an old master we know from Chinatown, my uncle, who moves like he just emerged from a body cast, stayed quiet. He allows his caregivers the comfort of having urged him to do something, knowing they don’t expect, maybe don’t even want him to really respond.

The New Normal

There have been minor triumphs in recent months since he switched to the new medicine.  He might remark at dinner on the food being too spicy, instead of just chewing mutely. He used to eat only bananas as his evening snack, and now he throws in the occasional apple or orange.

One evening, I asked my uncle if, after about five years, he had become the longest-running student in his day treatment group. He told us many people had been there far longer. My father joked about how long it was taking those students to “get better.” No, I say, it’s about managing the illness, reaching a point where it’s no longer getting worse. You still don’t understand you can’t cure these things, I said. They nod quietly, and my uncle says nothing. The lull dangles in our queer emotional stasis.

As a reporter, when writing about mental health issues, I’ve researched the concept of cultural competency. I’ve interviewed clinicians and advocates about Western mental health care’s failures in working with immigrant households, who often are reluctant to seek professional treatment and have difficulty grasping the idea there is no real cure. Researchers say Asian American families face special challenges due to different concepts of family cohesion, which tend to subjugate the individual will to the communal. Mental health issues in Asian American communities have historically been ignored or misunderstood, burdened by stigma, shame, and a lack of access to culturally sensitive treatment programs.

Still, I can never seem to graft that analysis onto the case study unfolding in my parents’ living room. We’re not ignorant people who think my uncle is cursed or evil. We’re not ashamed. Somehow the disdain my parents heap on him feels justified. He is irritating, unpleasant, and he is constantly there. Before he went crazy, he frustrated us in ways no one else really understood.
We may understand him better now that his personality bears a psychiatric label.

We understand ourselves less; my father’s unshakeable commitment to his brother seems to push the bounds of sanity at times, even if we couldn’t imagine it any other way. Maybe it runs in the family.

I go back to his birthday. Tonight, we rest. We’re at the Thai restaurant in Queens, two generations celebrating two birthdays and a graduation. Two middle-aged brothers face each other across the long table, balding and content. Tonight, my uncle toasts to his son Jeffrey.

He’s happy that everyone is together here, he says, and he’s proud.

I try to focus on his words and not the wheezy thinness of his voice as my mouth pulls into something just shy of a smile. Mired in the moment’s dense awkwardness is this fragile pride we all feel—an emotion pressed flat and smooth by exhaustion.

 

 

The Holy underground

Muslim cabbies and makeshift prayer space.

In the lot next to the American Airlines terminal a Muslim man seated on a milk crate is splashing his face with cold water from a jug. He pours it over his bare feet and both hands and then passes the container so his neighbor can do the same. Before them, eight rows of yellow taxis, inching toward LaGuardia Airport in a self-inflicted traffic jam. The men are cab drivers, and they are preparing to pray. Here, in the airport’s taxi holding lot, Muslim cabbies deposit their cars after they’ve delivered their passengers. They ritually purify themselves, either in the restroom or outside with the water jug, and circle around the back of the snack stand, where rugs have been laid out on the pavement. Facing east, toward Mecca, they prostrate themselves before the Divine.

It is raining heavily this evening, but shifts of shoeless men are kneeling in the open air all the same. Thousands of them will have passed through here by the end of the day. In the stall, the snack vendor sells halal rice and instant noodle soup. The dingy tiles of his stand are covered in black marker: ‘Ford Esquire 2008 for sale’ and ‘Need Day Driver.’ The devout pray quickly, streaming in and out of the space every few minutes, and when they are done, return wet to their cars and join the line of cabs headed back to the city. It is time again for work.

 

 

Roughly half of New York City’s 40,000 taxi drivers are Muslim. They are itinerants, and their destination is rarely a matter of personal choice. But they are also followers of Islam, practitioners faithful to a call to pray that sounds five times a day. Muslim prayer is not particularly straightforward: It involves ablution followed by a series of  prostration positions carried out in a relatively clean space. The prayer itself rarely takes more than ten minutes, but it must be performed on time. There are five periods of worship; some periods last longer than others. The maghrib prayer period typically begins at sunset and only goes on for about forty minutes; the isha’a prayer period begins around 9 p.m. and stretches until dawn. Sometimes the drivers are forced to forfeit passengers, sometimes to take roundabout routes in the search for an appropriate site. In desperate times, devotees bring out a small rug they keep in the trunk and pray in the backseat. Most have memorized a city-wide circuit of improvised prayer spaces that suffice when one cannot reach a mosque. As one cabbie told me emphatically, “The most important thing is not to let the prayer expire. Just park and do it.”

I have, for a long time, been interested in how religious rituals are modified to suit modern circumstance, perhaps because I’ve adapted a good number of them myself. Sociologists of religion often cite Muslim cabbie prayer strategies as exemplifying the ways in which immigrants blaze new religious trails in cosmopolitan cities like New York. When I first began to talk to Muslim taximen, I was under the impression they were tailoring their faith to meet the demands of their job. It seemed to me they were taking a rather stringent, age-old rite and, to some extent, bending it to suit the new and diverse religious landscape in which they now find themselves. But I no longer think that is the case. The drivers are tailoring their job to meet the demands of their faith. The recently-arrived immigrants I have encountered, young men from Islamabad, Istanbul and Alexandria, do not feel much of a difference between the prayer program they ascribed to back home and the one they follow in New York, save for the seamy state of so many of the mosques here. They do not feel they are making a sacrifice. More exactly, there is a sacrifice being made, but what they are giving up is not service to God. It comes in the form of parking tickets, lost fares, and a seven-day work week.

To better understand the ritual life of men on the move, I spent 11 days riding with eight Muslim taxi drivers, traveling through New York City neighborhoods, from Long Island to the Upper West Side. In their cabs they spoke to me about the challenges and impromptu resolutions that make up a religiously-committed driver’s shift. And they showed me, as well, pointing through the front windows at their own prayer haunts, at men streaming into mosques and the double-parked taxis they leave worriedly behind them. As we wound through congested avenues, I rested in the back seat, helping them scan the streets for a place to stop. I watched them sprint from their cars and then pray calmly, quietly. En route, minutes and seconds are of the essence. In prayer, all anxiety seems to dissipate. 

 

 

 

Improvising

Mirza Iqbal, 53, drives me back to my Manhattan apartment from LaGuardia when he is finished praying. He is an elegant-looking man with a coarse white beard and a pale skullcap. His face is leathery, his voice gentle and low. Iqbal came to Brooklyn from Pakistan 20 years ago and has been a taxi driver ever since. His shift begins at 5 p.m. and, on Fridays and weekends, might run until 4 a.m. We review prayer basics. Muslims can pray absolutely anywhere, even bowed over on the side of the road. “God doesn’t say the ground is dirty,” he tells me. But it is considered advantageous to pray in a group. “We usually try to make it together. The together prayer is better than the alone prayer.” Iqbal has only had to pray in his car twice. One of these times, he dropped a passenger off in New Jersey and, on his way back to the city, ran into heavy traffic. He was forced to stop at a rest area off the highway and perform the rite there. The cabbie has learned to calculate which way is east in a hurry.

Iqbal prays in the mosque if he can. There are over 400 scattered throughout the five boroughs and Long Island, and one of the biggest, a mosque on Coney Island Avenue that has been under construction for almost six months, is right next to his home.  He usually does his morning prayer there, at 5:30 a.m., before going to sleep for the day. New York’s largest mosque is the Islamic Cultural Center (popularly referred to as the “96th Street Mosque”) on 3rd Avenue between 96th and 97th streets. Should Iqbal find himself back on the Upper East Side in a couple of hours, he will stop there. If he can find a space, that is. “Parking is the big problem for us,” he says. “Sometimes we make round, make round, make round. If you’re lucky, you find.”

Landing a parking spot is the chief anxiety of every Muslim taxi driver in this town. The hunt is a critical deciding factor when it comes to selecting a prayer space, second in weight only to the whims of the passenger. Cab drivers used to be able to double-park on 97th at prayer time without repercussions, but the police have begun again to dole out tickets. Some cabbies try to fight the fine by bringing a notice to traffic court from the mosque testifying that they were present for prayer services.  But last year, after Iqbal found a $115 ticket on his windshield, he just paid up. “It doesn’t make sense to pay $115 when I make less than $200 per day. So I try to find meter parking, where it’s legal. Some people still double-park. They take a chance.” And on that note, Mirza Iqbal leaves me in front of my door and begins to look for his next fare.

 

 

 
Short-Term Spaces

In a nondescript Pakistani restaurant on Church Street in Tribeca, South Asian women serve up curried meat and spinach cafeteria-style. Behind them, in a dark kitchen, someone is cooking over fire. The New Shezan Restaurant looks almost like a small, seedy family living room: There is always a handful of people drinking chai tea and watching, from a single table, the Indian version of “So You Think You Can Dance?” on a suspended television set. The occasional unrelated customer wanders in, eats a samosa, and wanders out. Until evening comes. At a quarter past seven something strange happens. Men begin to file in—Bluetooth still in left ear, car keys still in right hand—en masse. They do not greet anyone, just head promptly to the restroom, toward the back, to wash themselves and then proceed down an obscured set of stairs. Soon there is a long line for the lavatory, but no one in the restaurant, least of all the women behind the counter, seems to notice. There must be a hundred of them in the basement by now.

The stairs are narrow and force visitors to duck down low or risk knocking their heads on the ceiling. At the bottom, a mountain of onions and potatoes in mesh sacks. I climb over the vegetables and take a look around: not a taxi driver in sight, only sealed boxes and a few garbage bags. And then a cabbie who has followed me down opens a concealed door to a very large and immaculate room painted in fluorescent green. There is a shower stall in the room and a modest library of books on Islam. Fans, loud speakers and Muslim calendars detailing prayer times are fastened to the walls; a donation box sits in a corner. The men have left their shoes in wooden cubbyholes. They stand, kneel and stretch out on the carpeted floor, and then they leave almost as suddenly as they came in, making room for the newly-arrived.

Mohammad Malik, 38, wears a black baseball cap and has decided to move with his family to Houston this summer. It is nearly 8 p.m., and he is driving me from the New Shezan Restaurant to an art vernissage on West 56th Street. Malik has been in the United States since 2000, but was only able to bring his wife and three daughters over from Pakistan a year ago. It took him that long to become a citizen. Houses are cheaper in Houston, he says, and the city is calmer. “The big problem in New York is that you don’t have time for your family. When I come to my job at 5 p.m., my daughters are just getting back from the school. And when I come back to the house, they are asleep. And when they go to the school, I’m asleep. But at least they’re with me now.” Malik cannot even find a place to park the cab in his own Brooklyn neighborhood when his shift is over. The only spaces available at three in the morning are metered ones, meaning that he has to wake up at 8 a.m. to move the car. He plans on changing jobs in Texas.

 

 

Malik prays at least once a shift at New Houston Auto Repair, a garage at the corner of Houston and Lafayette. His friend, the owner of the shop, has set up a small prayer room there and it isn’t too difficult to find a space nearby. “Prayer time begins in seven minutes,” he tells me. “I’ll drop you and go downtown to the garage. There’s so many mosques in Manhattan, but there’s no parking. And this prayer time is a short one; if you’re late, the prayer expires.” He never parks illegally “because then your concentration is not on the prayer. It’s not worth it. If you’re going for the worship then all your focus should be towards the prayer, not the parking.” Often, when he is running behind schedule, he prays inside the car. “God knows your conditions,” he says. “Money, you know, you can make it. But when the prayer is gone, it’s gone.” He turns on his off-duty sign as I get out of the cab.

The next day at 5:10 p.m. Malik is washing his feet in the black sink at Houston Auto. A taxi with its hood popped open blocks the entrance. Two more are propped up in the air, mechanics in navy blue uniforms laboring underneath them. It is little and unapologetically greasy, the way most garages are. The workers do not seem bothered by Malik, who balances on one leg as he scrubs the other. He leads me up some unstable metal steps like a fire escape, to a  closet-sized room with Oriental rugs on the floor. He will do his asar prayer here and then start his shift. Today he is alone, but often he prays together with four or five other drivers—I cannot imagine how they all fit in here—and then they share food they bring from home. Anyone is welcome to use the prayer space; no one has to announce himself. “In the winter my friend puts the heat on and in the summer we got a fan,” Malik tells. It is storming out this afternoon and I think of the drivers caught at the airport. I ask Malik if they’ll pray behind the snack stand even in this weather. “We don’t care; we just pray.”

The vendor who works behind the counter at the LaGuardia snack stand calls himself Henry. He is an excited man from Bangladesh, who smiles even when he is angry, and has been feeding taxi drivers for the last 15 years. One evening, as the maghrib prayer period begins, Henry offers me a coffee and takes me around the back of his stall. About 30 men are standing with their heads bowed; one has taken on the part of the imam and is reciting the prayer aloud in Arabic. He points to a long tar-like smear near the roof. It takes a little while, but soon I understand that Henry affixed an awning to the stand to protect the praying cabbies from rain and snow about a year ago. He bought the covering himself from Home Depot and hired builders to help put it up. The entire operation cost him $5,000, which he paid out of his own pocket. The awning was up for almost a month when the Port Authority noticed and had the drivers take it down. Now the canopy is sitting in his living room at home. Henry doesn’t have much to say about it. He just keeps shaking his head. “Port Authority say no. They come here and they say no.”

The operations supervisor at LaGuardia tells me the Port Authority discovered the snack stand awning when a maintenance truck sideswiped it by accident. He explains that the drivers are not authorized to build anything on airport property. “What if every religion wanted to pray out there in the lot?” he asks heatedly. “This isn’t a place for prayer; it’s an airport. The Muslim drivers can’t just change the entire environment of a place that doesn’t belong to them. It might snowball.” If they wanted, they could submit a tenant alteration application, he says. But this would entail putting forward an entire architectural plan and “that’s not a cheap thing to do.” 

The cabbies also pray in a nook near the Delta Air Lines terminal, below an overpass. The supervisor recalls they once tried to build flooring there out of sheets of plywood to avoid praying on the gravel. “It was a trip hazard. And it was right next to the walkway. Imagine, three feet from the sidewalk!  People were scared to walk there; we got complaints. You know, with all this terrorist stuff . . . People mistakenly think they’re terrorists. And their carpets shouldn’t be there either; they’re going to be gone, too. Why can’t you just keep your rug in your car? Those rugs could be a sanitary hazard; they look like garbage to me. Listen, this airport is nondenominational. That’s why we stop religious people from soliciting in the hallways. I’d like to go to church during the day, I’m a religious man. But I have to go to work instead. If you need to pray all day, maybe taxi driver just isn’t the right job for you.”

 

The Ritual Rush

On Friday afternoons at half past one peddlers selling Arabic CDs, elaborate floor mats, dates, imported cookies and wall plaques bearing the name of the Prophet line Third Avenue on the Upper East Side. A man with a halal food pushcart positions himself strategically in front of the entrance to the “96th Street Mosque” and waits for the rush. The Friday prayer, or jumu’ah prayer, replaces the regular afternoon dhuhr prayer. The most significant prayer of the week, Muslim men are required to perform it in congregation. The ornate turquoise room on the upper level of the Islamic Cultural Center—used only on Fridays and Islamic holidays—holds 1,000 worshippers at capacity. The smaller space on the main floor can accommodate 400. But there are still more devotees, and they spill out onto the lawn in front of the mosque’s open door so they can hear the imam’s recitation. Men, women and children kneel in the grass. Every few seconds a straggler runs hysterically down the sidewalk and toward the imposing dome to join them, tossing off his shoes.

The stream of people that push out of the Center’s double doors when the prayer is over does not subside for nearly 20 minutes. The street vendors begin to call out; a man standing on a cardboard box begins to preach loudly. Older women in full hijab hold out cups and paper bags for handouts. Men rattle donation boxes and passersby stuff bills inside.  A patrolling traffic control officer tells me they are still willing to turn a blind eye to illegally parked cars on Fridays at prayer time. (The officers are obligated to write out tickets if someone complains about their car being blocked.) Taxicabs are double-parked all the way down 97th Street. One is triple-parked. It looks like a Muslim funfair.

Out on the Street

The Mobil gas station on 51st Street and 11th Avenue seems empty. The West African man who usually sits behind the counter is outside pumping gas into someone’s Volkswagen. Inside, where the cash register and assorted snacks are, it is completely silent. But in the adjoining car service area taxi drivers are in prayer, holed up in a threadbare room that might once have held windshield washer fluid and oil. The station’s aged Pakistani manager prefers to kneel out in the open on two wooden boards covered with rugs. He is crouched underneath shelves that hold rubber tires. The station attendant, Omar Ouedraogo, 46, counted 200 the one time he kept track of how many cabbies came in to pray throughout the day. The nearby mosque, on 44th Street, only opens its doors in ten-minute spurts; it closes immediately after every prayer, rejecting the idea of the longer, more lenient prayer period. It is also known for kicking out devotees who lag behind. Ouedraogo says this is often the case in New York. Delayed drivers find themselves at the gas station.

Often they park up on the sidewalk in front of the fuel pumps, ready to risk a fine because the prayer only takes a few short moments. “Everyday someone gets a ticket,” Ouedraogo shrugs, and nods toward a circling police car. But policemen are welcome to pray in the space too, and some of them show up from time to time. Ouedraogo doesn’t get parking tickets, but even he has been chastised by the officers. “I’ve been doing the nightshift here for two years,” he tells me. “I work by myself, no one else. And I always open the door for people who want to come in and pray. The police have come to complain. What if one time I let someone in and something happens accidentally? It’s hard. I let everyone in at the risk of my own safety. But my boss set this up to give Muslims the opportunity to pray. Sometimes I lock the door so I have the chance to see who’s coming in, but then I have to open the door twenty, thirty times a night. Sometimes I’m outside pumping gas and I forget someone’s inside. But you know, the people just pray and there’s never a problem.”

Less than a ten-minute walk away, in Times Square, Omer Ozkaya, 25, meets tourists coming out of Broadway shows and takes them to the bars or back to their hotels in his bicycle rickshaw. He arrived from Turkey four months ago (“I am a New Yorker,” he beams) hoping to do a master’s degree in mechanical engineering. Instead he takes English language lessons in the morning and rides his cycle into the night. Often he prays in the car park on 43rd Street and Sixth Avenue, where his boss keeps the bicycles. “Sometimes the personnel don’t like,” he says. “I need water to wash so I have to use the restroom, and I have to ask the personnel to open the restroom every time. I don’t want to bother them, but you have to do it if you believe.”

Tonight Ozkaya prays at the mosque on 29th Street between Broadway and Fifth Avenue. It is dark out and there are no women here but me. The entrance to the mosque is like a recessed storefront and the house of worship is surrounded on all sides by dingy linoleum-floored restaurants. Post-prayer, hundreds of men rush Chandni, the largest eatery. They emerge with pita bread stuffed with meat and overrun the sidewalk. The mosque is open from 11:45 p.m. until midnight; when it is closed, practitioners pray in the restaurants. All of the surrounding streets are yellow with parked taxis. A cabbie who has been circling for nearly 15 minutes finally gets out of his car, moves a bicycle rickshaw onto the walkway and parks in the now vacant spot. The bicycle driver, livid, begins to bang with his hands on the taxi’s windshield. Most of the men look tired and fed up. Facing the mosque is a vast, vacant parking lot. But lots aren’t free.

It is difficult trying to negotiate a nomadic existence and the fickle demands of faith, hard on the spirit and, in the coldest months, hard on the body. They earn little, these drivers, and put up with too much. But, in an important way, they are free. They are not caged in cubicles or behind counters. They do not need to slink off and pray in office restrooms, risk being fired for neglecting shoppers. Rather than being the wrong job for people who need to pray, taxi driving seems in many ways the right one. The cab drivers have an off-duty sign and they can turn it on whenever they like. They have the freedom not to amend a ritual they want to go unchanged. “I worked in the restaurant for one day,” Ozkaya tells me. “And even the owner is Muslim. I told him I want—no, I have—to pray. I don’t want to break it. But he told me you can’t do it because customers might come.” Ozkaya has decided he won’t stay in New York City very long. Just long enough to kneel down by his bicycle in Central Park in the heat of summer.

 

Related links:

 

www.30mosques.com

 

Not enough boxes

Census falls short with its choices

 

 

My daughter is black, and she’s Latina. She could call herself a black Latina. But she could also decide to be a Latina who is black. Sometimes she could be Mexican or Mexican-American And in her heart I hope a little piece of her grows up to be Chicano. Most of all, I hope somewhere, in all those designations, she understands she just simply is.
 
The 2010 Census has forced my husband and me to have another one of our long and multilayered discussions about what it means to be black and Latino in this country.
 
My husband is the son of two black parents, a dancer and a psychology professor, both of whom embraced the Black Power movement of the 1960s and ‘70s in New York City. I am the daughter of two Mexican immigrants, janitors who raised me in a traditional household in Texas, warning me to be weary of America’s materialistic culture and not to trust the promise of “fairness for all.”

Moving to Los Angeles, I discovered my Chicano pride.  On those streets I found murals filled with sun-kissed people who looked like me, “lowriders” with their eponymous cars and Spanish-language music on every corner. There I experienced a political awareness of being not only Mexican-American but also “brown” in America. This same Chicano pride has inspired poets, artists, academics, musicians, student protesters, and many others to seek acknowledgement of a collective heritage of racially undefined “brownness” that comes with a subordinate status in this country.
 
And now here we are, the two of us married, with a six-month-old daughter who sometimes wakes up looking black and sometimes wakes up looking Mexican, and who always wakes up looking beautiful.
 
But how will the world see her, and how will she see herself? That remains to be worked out between her and society. We can only teach her what we know, who her people are, and where she comes from — two cultures full of music, good food, dancing, joy, hard work, powerful ancestors and lands that span from the Americas to Africa.

Our baby girl’s first name is Maya, for the Mayan people and the African American writer, Maya Angelou.  Her middle name is Adeyemi, a Yoruba name from Nigeria that means “this crown suits me,” in honor of her grandmother.
 
And now this Census form attempts to box her into a few choice races. Impossible.
 
So we check a few boxes to try to have her counted where it matters for federal funds in America – “yes” for Hispanic origin, “Black” for race and “Mexican” as a write-in race we made up because we don’t find a race that fits her Latino half, and we refuse to label her “other.”

Meanwhile, we know it will take her a lifetime, as for most of us, to figure out how she counts herself.

 

Cebu, Philippines

The last place on Earth…

Baptism by Water

     A large splash.

     Silence.

     I open my eyes and take a long breath. I’m in another world, specifically, off the coast of Moalboal, in Cebu, Philippines. I’ve been diving here for the past five days, and everyday has provided me with new reasons to shout mindless obscenities into the air, for lack of a better way to express my complete and utter astonishment at the world we live in.

     Today, I’m diving with what looks to be about a million sardines. All I can see are these agile little fish darting back and forth to a symphony only they can hear. It’s a beautiful day, and the beams of sunlight break through the ocean surface. These rays of light reflect off each individual fish scale, creating a sea of diamonds. At any moment I genuinely expect a “Wizard of Oz”-like face to materialize and explain my greater destiny to me. Ten minutes later I am disappointed when nothing happens and head back to the surface.

     Back on the boat I look back at Pescador island, my dive site and home to the occasional whale shark and manta ray, and I silently think to myself that if I didn’t owe so much in student loans, I would love to recreate an episode of “Survivor” and live on this island by myself. Then I realize that watching episodes of “Survivor” wouldn’t even be remotely possible on this island, and I return to better senses as the boat heads back to the mainland.

 

 

 

The Mango

     Later that day I realize that I have a lot of time to kill, so I head into town. In town there are many fruit vendors, and with a quick glance, I immediately zero in on the mangoes being sold.

     Cebu, this small island in the Philippines, is probably the most famous mango-producing location in the world. You’ve probably seen their dried mangoes packaged in your nearby supermarket.

     I make a beeline to the nearest vendor and ask for the freshest mango she has. The woman working at the stall complies and slices up the mango for me so it is ready to eat.

     Think back: Do you remember your first kiss with that person that you really cared about? How perfect was the world at that moment? That moment in time will stay with you forever. Now, think about how special that moment was, multiply it by ten, and you may get a sense of how I felt while I ate that Cebu mango.

     The following is a brief transaction of my thoughts while I ate that wonderful fruit:

     Bite. ‘Oh my goodness, this is good.

     Bite. ‘Hate doesn’t exist in this world; everybody loves each other!’

     Bite. ‘I’ve never liked cats, but why? They’ve never done anything to me. I will love cats forever now.’

     Bite. ‘Jesus? Is that you?’

     Being from Canada, the mangoes I’ve eaten have usually been from Mexico. These mangoes usually have a very fuzzy quality to them and are sour. The mangoes I ate in Cebu were not only the sweetest mangoes I’ve ever had, but their texture was similar to that of a ripe peach. To this day my descriptions can’t do justice to how good that mango was.

 

 

 

What I’d Thought I’d Lost

     After my out-of-body experience, I went to grab a bite to eat at a restaurant where I had made friends with the owners. The meal I ate was wonderful, and after the meal, the store owners asked if I wanted to join them and some locals in a game of pick-up basketball. I eagerly agreed and off we went to the basketball court together.

     You see, as far as I’m concerned, there are three main religions in the Philippines: Roman Catholicism, Manny Pacquiao and basketball. Manny Pacquiao is the Philippines’ legendary boxer who graces the covers and billboards of, well, everything in the Philippines. However, other than him, nothing or no one is as popular as the sport of basketball in this country. I’ve played basketball most of my life, but when my friends at the restaurant asked me to join them and some locals in a game of pick-up basketball, I didn’t know what to expect.

     We arrived early at the basketball court. The run-down court was directly in front of what looked to be the town’s old city hall. My friends and I shot around until people started showing up. When they did I was a little surprised: They all came to play… in flip-flops! I wasn’t exactly wearing basketball shoes, but at least I was still wearing shoes. My misgivings of how they would play immediately disappeared once the game started.

 

 

 

     Immediately after the jump ball, I witnessed possibly one the greatest, most improbable athletic feats achieved by mortal men. These Filipino basketball players were running and jumping like gazelles in their flip-flops. After my initial shock, I focused on the game since there was now a fair-sized crowd focusing on me, the starting foreigner. I bricked my first two shots and thought to myself, ‘This is going to be a long game.’ However, later on, I started to find my stroke. I let my muscle memory take over and just shot without over thinking, and voila, my shots started going in. It was a close game and the crowd started chanting ’Lebron James’ whenever I shot the ball. It was the first time (and probably the last) I’d ever been called Lebron James, and the antithesis of what I’m usually called (something along the lines of ‘towel boy’). We ended up losing the game on a last-second shot. Tired and exhausted, I sat down on the sidelines trying to absorb where I was and everything that was happening.

     Having worked abroad in Japan for the past year, I had longed to return back to Canada; being so far away from family and friends, my emotional state consisted of frequent peaks and valleys. Yet, as I sat on that bench, in that small town in the Philippines, playing basketball with new friends, I was overcome by an overwhelming sense of clarity. I had finally felt at home, and this was the last place on Earth I expected it to be.

 

From petrol to tacos

My quest in bringing authentic Mexican cuisine to Hong Kong

Trained as an oil equity analyst, I had seen my life for the last three years revolve around oil prices day in and day out, often hopping through different countries and telling clients what to buy and sell. While the work was challenging and exciting, it lacked a certain fulfillment. I always felt that to be a top-notch analyst, I needed to have some real operational experience. It was then that I toyed with the idea of creating a business of my own, something that truly embodies me: my very own taqueria, which I named “Mr. Taco Truck” after beloved counterparts dotted throughout California, offering the authentic yet affordable taste of Mexico one taco at a time.

Blessed with parents who excelled in Chinese cooking, I was spoiled with quality food from an early age and had developed a palette that demands to be excited. Over the years as a self-proclaimed foodie, I sought culinary delights here and aboard, and none has left a more lasting impression than the vivid flavors of Mexico.

As a Hong Kong native, I discovered Mexican cuisine rather late — during my college years in California. While it was not love at first bite thanks to diversions like Taco Bell and other Mexican imposters, I was blown away when I discovered the flavors of authentic taquerias. From mesquite-grilled carne asada to fresh homemade salsa and horchata, casual mom-and-pop shops are where Mexican cuisine is at its best and where I went at least a few times per week, especially after late night drinks. Subsequent travels to the country have further reinforced my love affair with the culture and its cuisine. From coast to coast, Mexican flavors represent a true fusion of the old and new world.

Since moving back to Hong Kong, there is nothing I missed more than hanging out at those taco stalls. Despite the abundance of other international flavors, authentic Mexican cuisine has yet to establish a foothold here because of a shortage of options.
So I decided to bring it from across the ocean home to Hong Kong. I dreamt up the colors of Baja for my very own taco shop on a street corner amid the concrete jungle.

Despite doing so without reservation, running a restaurant is not an easy task. Learning as much as I could along the way, I came to a new sense of appreciation for any established small business. While previous experience may have prepared me for the planning side of the equation, hands-on day-to-day operational involvement is a totally new challenge. From front-of-house items such as restaurant design, graphics, advertisements, and marketing to back-of-house kitchen setup, menu development, and food preparation, all aspects require personal attention to the finest detail. This is especially true for a kitchen novice like me.

I never saw myself fit for a kitchen, and my relationship with cooking has always been a love-hate one. Don’t get me wrong, I love cooking. My curiosity for culinary delights has always drawn me to experiment. However, full command of a kitchen demands skills and composure drawn from years of experience and knowledge I didn’t have of ingredients while a desk jockey. I therefore made it my mission to improve my cooking and overcome technical difficulties in order to bring authentic taqueria-quality tacos to Hong Kong. At least good enough that I could eat them every day.

While I did consider hiring a cook, the lack of local experience with Mexican cuisine meant I needed to take a much bigger role in food preparation. Everything had to start from scratch.

After leaving behind my desk job, I traveled to Ecuador for four months to brush up on my Spanish — Yes, you better speak Spanish if you own a Mexican restaurant! — and Latin culture. Afterwards I sampled my way from San Diego to San Francisco, California, looking for the best tacos on the U.S. West Coast and secured key ingredients and authentic recipes. Although tomatoes and meat would be localized in Hong Kong, I sought the right type of dried chilies and corn flour to ensure that my creation would not be a watered-down version that caters to local taste. I wanted to bring back home as many important little touches as I could.

The preparation of the food demands a great amount of time. The hours after the shop closes for the day are spent preparing for the next, including cutting meat chunks into appropriate sizes and perfecting the marinade. Every night beans need to be mashed, fresh salsa has to be made, and corn tortillas have to be pressed. Although I am not a perfectionist, I do pride myself at creating everything from scratch. You will not find canned refried beans or prepackaged guacamole in my kitchen. Cooking is a labor of love, and there are no shortcuts to quality.

Many people I know were surprised by my decision to trade away my thriving office career to a vocation of never-ending labor and physical commitment. Is it hard work? Totally! Vacations and happy hours no longer exist in my vocabulary. All my time is poured into the restaurant. Yet as any entrepreneur can attest, despite the grueling work and long hours, the creation of something that is one’s own is gratifying and draws on one’s adventurous spirit that no stable career can offer.

On any given afternoon, the aroma of grilled meats and Spanish tunes
fill the air from our corner in Hong Kong’s Quarry Bay among towering office towers and apartments. Our tacos, enchiladas and horchata now vie with wonton noodles and Chinese milk tea.

Encouragement and excitement from those longing for such food as I once did now bring me satisfaction, as do the smiles of first-time taco eaters who tomorrow become regulars.

 

 

The road as metaphor

In his latest book, intrepid reporter Ted Conover ruminates on roads from Peru to Palestine

One great challenge in writing about roads, Ted Conover explains in the epilogue of his new road-themed nonfiction release The Routes of Man, is to avoid inadvertent use of the casual road metaphor.

“So essential a part of the human endeavor are roads,” he writes, “that road- and driving-related metaphors permeate our language. Who among us hasn’t come to a fork in the road or been tempted by the road to ruin? Speed bumps, in the newspapers, are faced by everyone from Middle East peace negotiators to baseball teams making their way to the playoffs. Leaders who are asleep at the wheel routinely send our enterprises into a ditch.” Point taken. But Conover’s not done. In fact he fills an entire page with turns of phrase — 37 clauses and as many clichés —rooted in the concept of the road.

In doing so, he lands on a crucial point: A road is not just a way of getting from one point to another. It means something more, not only in our everyday vernacular but also in our collective consciousness. The road is an instrument of entry and escape, a means to an end, a symbol of progress. And a winding foreground for drama. 

Conover’s past books narrate adventures into pockets of American culture: he has ridden the rails as a hobo, ventured across the U.S.-Mexico border with illegal immigrants, and, perhaps most famously, worked as a prison guard in New York’s Sing Sing prison. In The Routes of Man: How Roads Are Shaping the World and the Way We Live Today, he applies the same narrative nonfiction lens to the stories of six roads in six countries — six roads “that are reshaping the world.”

Conover begins in Peru, riding in a big-rig along the road that carries mahogany to global exporters — an unpaved and unpredictable mountain route that might eventually be put out of use by the building of the Interoceanic Highway that will link the Amazon basin with the Pacific Coast of Peru. From there he treks the frozen river chaddar, a forty-mile surface trail in Zanskar, India; then the Kinshasha Highway through Tanzania, Africa (along which the AIDS epidemic is said to have traveled and spread); the elevated 60 Road across the disputed land border in the West Bank in Palestine; the sleek, modern Guangzhou-Shenzhen Superhighway in China; and lastly, the congested Apapa-Oworonshoki Expressway in Lagos, Nigeria.

For Conover, the story of a road is rooted in the story of those who travel it. He writes with gracious honesty and great interest about his travel companions — among them truckers, ambulance workers, road-trippers from China, teenage students from Zanskar, and Israeli paratroopers — and adeptly employs their individual narratives in the service of a greater concept: that of the road as a means of personal and cultural self-discovery. A road presents its traveler with ample opportunity for moments of revelation. Conover’s prose is simple and elegant in relating his own experience of such moments, as in the following passage about a steep descent through the Andes Mountains in Peru:

It was all downhill, with every turn seeming to bring a little more warmth, a little more humidity, plants and trees we hadn’t seen before. The view was still limited until one particular turn revealed the sudden vista, one of those spectacular places through which you come to understand the shape of the planet: the wrinkled green mountainsides spread out before us, dissolving suddenly in the vast, smooth green sameness of the Amazon basin, a flatness that stretches two thousand miles to the sea. Interrupting the mountainside below were little brown threads, glimpses into the same road we were on, a thread that writhes back and forth like an earthworm held by the tail.

This is the great promise of the road: the quick turn that affords you an unexpected view and, with it, a new perspective.

Of course, roads are not all romance and revelation. They present threats of pollution and danger, casualty and corruption, and the spread of disease. And there is also the more generalized threat of globalization, the eradication of local culture by the global market. Nowhere in Conover’s book does this threat seem more acute than in Zanskar, where teens who hope to further their education must leave the village for the first time by way of the chaddar, a trail across the slippery surface of a frozen river.

Through Conover’s eyes, the chaddar is certainly beautiful, even magical — but its route is also perilous, difficult to navigate and subject to the whims of the weather. In recent years, there has been talk of building an all-season road along the chaddar to give Zanskarians a simpler way out of the village — and, in turn, give outsiders a simpler way in. Conover notes that most Zanskarians seemed in favor of the road. Politically and economically, its construction makes sense. Zanskarian teacher Tenzin Choetop shared his feeling that an all-season road would “liberate” his students and provide them with an escape from the “small-mindedness” of their isolated upbringing.

Outsiders, however, are more likely to have a different view: that of the road as an intrusion upon a still-intact, indigenous culture, a Western bastardization of Shangri-La. Writes Conover, “I was not eager to see a road built through the chaddar … Bad things were bound to come in; life would change, and not always for the better. But Zanskar was not a museum … [and] Shangri-La was not a local idea. It was a Western idea, a symbol of what we lost when we advanced, a seductive nostalgia, a dream.”

Conover applies the same clean and comprehensive logic to all of the communities he encounters: from the recreational driving clubs in China, whose members flaunt driving as an inborn right, to the stopped-up go-slows (traffic jams) of Lagos that transform, organically, into open-air markets. These and other stories come together in The Routes of Man to create an enlightening and engaging chronicle of the way roads shape the people who travel them and the places where they live.

 

South America’s best-kept secret

Finding volcanoes and meaning in Ecuador

As I stand patiently in line at the dusty immigration office awaiting my prized passport stamp, I am drawn to the thoughts and memories of my time in Ecuador.  I first arrived in the country knowing absolutely nothing about it.  Let’s be honest: when imagining Latin America, we see Christ the Redeemer in Rio, or the Mecca of Machu Picchu. For most backpackers, Ecuador is nothing more than a small country sitting north of Peru.  And as selfish as it might be, part of me hopes that it never becomes a highlight, because right now it feels like I have it all to myself.

A welcoming place

I have traveled South America extensively, and Ecuador reminds me a lot of a couple of its Central American cousins: Costa Rica and Guatemala.  Ecuador has all the tourism potential of Costa Rica, but it has somehow managed to fend off the mob of backpackers and resort-stayers that now dominate its Central American counterpart. Like Guatemala, Ecuador has a varied population of people who are eager to welcome you regardless of your particular origins.  People here wave to passing cars, welcoming their passengers without a second thought.

Insignificance and awe

Towns like Baños de Agua Santa offer everything a backpacker could ever need and more. It sits in an ideal climate where the temperature is never too hot and rarely cold. In this lush mountain town, I spend one day jumping off a bridge, attached only by a not-so-reassuring rope, and the next day rushing down swiftly moving rapids on a six-person raft. The prominent features of cloud and water are inescapable.  Images of the cloud forest lend nostalgic notions of scenes from Hollywood movies, where tall volcanoes, over 5,000 meters tall, stand guard over countless towering waterfalls.  The clouds hang carelessly low among the lush green mountainsides.  They billow into puffy white and grey cotton balls, seemingly in constant motion, as if they have somewhere important to be.  In a world where most cultures and societies worship the sun to some extent, in the cloud forest you learn to cherish the rain.  In the cloud forest, the rain means life:  it greens the foliage, fills the rivers and feeds the valley’s impressive myriad of tall, whispering waterfalls.

Ecuador’s share of the Amazon basin also leaves visitors standing with a sensation of overwhelming insignificance and awe.  At the surface, the endless valleys of green shrubbery in la selva (the jungle) appear shallow and monotonous in color and form.  But as you dig down beneath the numerous layers of the forest’s canopy you can only begin to understand the diversity and character of the Amazon basin.  As I hike through a narrow canyon surrounded covered by the thick canopy, a troop of squirrel monkeys chants above me and bats shriek as they rush past my ears.  The jungle is never quiet.  The rain forest is constantly breathing; it is full of life and, in turn, provides more than we can imagine.  To us, the jungle usually provides a setting for adventure, reserved for the likes of Indiana Jones and Lara Croft, but to the indigenous people, their trees, flowers and their food all come from this tropical provider.  As is the case with the cloud forest, the jungle is one of those places so rich with beauty it can leave you at a standstill, and even cause you to forget to take a picture. Most people spend their time trying to add meaning and significance to their everyday life.  But in travel, we spend our time trying to find the places that make us feel insignificant; Ecuador’s piece of the Amazon gives that to us.

The hustling, bustling stillness

In Ecuador, one should not forget to experience the cities as well.  The urban enclaves of Cuenca and Quito combine the benefits of the modern world with the charm and character of the colonial era.  Stuccoed houses with balconies and narrow, cobbled streets line the old, colonial parts of these cities.  I wander through the cities’ massive, hallowed churches, government buildings and bustling plazas, which form the social centers of the cities and I realize that these parts act as the heart and the lungs of Ecuadorian society.  In these plazas and squares, people seem to still have to time simply to sit, share, and converse as the world continues around them.

Interconnected

Like any adventure-oriented travel destination, Ecuador still provides volatility and intrigue.  The indigenous people of la selva still often set up roadblocks intending to slow the damage to their home and their local natural environment, on which they so greatly rely. Less than 15 years ago, the country was still involved in both inter- and intra-state conflicts, many of which still seem to simmer in the undercurrents of Ecuadorian society.  Natural disasters are still a part of everyday life. Mudslides, torrential downpours and earthquakes are all a possibility at any given moment.  Moreover, many of Ecuador’s volcanoes are still very active.  In fact, the large volcano which guards the entrance into Baños has been growing steadily in activity, and spews off large amounts of lava on a regular basis.

Ecuador remains just a small blip on the global tourism radar.  However, its rawness is, in large part, what makes this country such a jewel.  It is well worth the exploration, time and challenge.  In Ecuador you can find yourself navigating your way down narrow, waterfall-lined canyons one day, rafting down segments of the Amazon basin the next, and then soaking in the urban colonial atmosphere the following night. Regardless of its lack of a Machu Picchu or Carnaval de Rio, Ecuador has a diversity and untouched beauty that may make it South America’s next hot travel destination — much to my dismay.

For more of Brendan’s adventures, go to: http://www.brendansadventures.com

 

 

Marching for more than money

Graduate students strike at University of Illinois

Last November was unusually warm and sunny at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign until the morning of November 16, when a crowd of graduate students sporting ponchos, rain boots, and GEO signs and buttons swarmed the main Quad in the chilly rain. It was almost 7:45 a.m., and very few of us were used to being on campus that early on a Monday, or on any day.

The 8 a.m. teaching times are hardly coveted. We had prepared for this, though, and would not have missed it: we had been exchanging e-mail and Facebook messages on where to find the best raincoats and ponchos, and what to bring for snacks (and figuring out where we might use the restroom); we knew to have T-shirts, buttons, and signs, but that nothing with sticks were allowed.

During this kick-off of the Graduate Employees’ Union (GEO) strike, we could hold umbrellas to shield ourselves from the icy drops, but those umbrellas would have to be folded when we broke into groups to picket the large campus buildings around the Quad. It should have come as no surprise to the administration or the local and statewide media that the graduate students turned out in such numbers under such conditions, and not just because of the lingering, “Yes we can” mentality from the Obama campaign, or the rebellious allure of standing up for ourselves during a time when so much in the current economic and academic environment seems out of control, and definitely out of our control.

Trouble brewing

Disseminated over the previous week, the plan was clear: The administration’s representatives would sit down for a bargaining session — the 19th over this contract — with GEO’s bargaining unit, lead by history graduate student Kerry Pimblott, the weekend before the pending strike, and should they not reach a tentative agreement, we would strike.

Despite its distance from campus, a few hundred graduate students gathered for a rally outside the Institute of Aviation at Willard Airport, and several dozen crammed into the negotiation room a very small lecture hall. The issues on the table were various, and they seemed to reflect the economic mood of the country in general, and the state of Illinois in particular: The key points of the contract aimed to preserve current labor opportunities and tuition waivers.

The ‘f’ word on everyone’s mind in late 2009 was furloughs — mandatory time off work without pay — which no other union on campus had been able to negotiate out of their new contracts, and perhaps this would be the stickiest issue to hammer out. However, by the end of the long evening at the airport during which an agreement was reached on increase in the university’s contribution to graduate student healthcare premiums, on parental leaves, on dropping furloughs from the proposed contract, and on gradual raises to the minimum salary, the final point of contention between the administration and GEO had become the contract’s language regarding tuition waivers. Presented by the administration as a non-issue, the security of tuition waivers supports the very ability of the university to attract top graduate students as well as the ability of the most talented and deserving students to pursue graduate education.

The debate seemed further complicated by the verbiage that GEO demanded clarified: The existing language did not explicitly guarantee the waiver of the entire tuition amount, only the base rate, and this posed a threat to the graduate students from other states as well as other countries whose rate of tuition could have jumped higher than the minimum salary, making graduate school simply unaffordable for many current students. We were happy with the advances our bargaining team had made, but there was no way that we would accept a compromise on tuition waivers.

There had been previous signs of trouble on that front: the university had considered eliminating tuition waivers for graduate students working the least hours as graduate assistants (and thus making the smallest salary); they had rescinded tuition waivers to undergraduate TAs in chemistry. For some this seemed like a petty point, and I heard more than one undergraduate complain about how graduate students already got paid to go to school, and now they insisted on free tuition as well. I did my best to explain how it all works, that we don’t in fact get paid to go to school, but to work. We teach over 23% of all the undergraduate classes at UIUC. I usually teach four classes a year, two each semester, and if I deducted my tuition from my annual pay, I’d be left with –$4,247.

The strike begins

So we kicked off the strike in the rain, and continued to picket in the rain all day. The lines consisted not only of graduate assistants but also their partners, former graduate students, non-tenure-track faculty, and professors. Further down the line from me was English professor Cary Nelson, the President of the American Association of University Professors, who had called graduate students and collective bargaining “the only hope for the universities of the future” the week before at a GEO rally.

We each marched during the shifts we’d signed up for, and I suspect that many of us spent time at the picket lines outside of those shifts, too.  (We’d later Facebook about our various pains and aches, declaring it all worth it.) Facebook and Twitter updates about how the strike was going, sent from cell phones in picket lines, kept everyone informed, and the comments of encouragement and solidarity came not only from current students at UIUC and elsewhere, but from former graduate student workers as well whose leadership and hard work had created our labor union in the early 1990s, and whose efforts made these negotiations possible since the GEO was voted in as the official representative of graduate student labor at the University in 2003.

The second day of the strike dawned as rainy and windy as the first, but the picket lines remained strong and loud, with anticipation for new from the next bargaining session set for that morning. Looking around me, I saw perhaps even more enthusiasm than the day before. There was not just marching and chanting, but also singing and dancing.

Still, standing and walking around in the cold and the rain was getting to me a bit, but mostly because I felt misunderstood. While the campus newspaper was publishing accounts from both the administration and the GEO, but I was frustrated at what I called “the fear talk,” regarding the strike. After all, GEO had informed the media about the strike, and we’d all talked to our students about it ahead of time.

Yet the picketing itself and the empty classrooms were depicted as frightening: One headline for The Daily Illini answered valid questions about what undergraduate students might encounter during the strike in a piece that purportedly addressed “the rising fears about GEO strike” (none of my students or the students I saw walking by — and crossing — the picket lines seemed intimidated). Similarly, some undergraduates posted video they’d shot on their cell phones on the Quad. Seemingly enjoying themselves outside of class, one of the students laughs and she tells the camera that the “TAs” are being “loud” and “scary.” It was at times frustrating to see these students, of whose education we are such a crucial part, think of the strike as gratuitous. I hope, though, that seeing their teachers in the picket line and having to think about what that meant might have been useful higher education for some of the students.

By early afternoon, the news was spreading to suspend the strike and gather around the Foellinger Auditorium at the heart of campus to hear that GEO negotiated a side note guaranteeing the current tuition waivers for the duration of the contract and thus reached a tentative agreement. The celebratory crowd, with their banners, drums, and chants, had a few hours until GEO’s largest general membership meeting in its history came together to hear the details.

The strike was suspended, and over the three remaining days before the fall break, GEO members voted on ratifying the contract. It was strange how much we noticed being away from our respective buildings for just two days, but we were also happier than ever to be there. The dim halls of the English building sure seemed brighter Wednesday morning. I felt I had actually earned my right, in a more profound way, to work in that building. Walking across the street to the University YMCA to cast my vote felt like decompression after the intensity of the picket lines.

The after effects

Given how significant and controversial the strike was on campus, the attention to it among the general campus community seemed to wane rather quickly. Perhaps the tryptophan helped wash away the immediacy of the two-day strike over the Thanksgiving break. Only one of my students mentioned the outcome to me, as small talk when came to ask me about an assignment. But among the graduate students who picketed and had a hand in bringing about the best possible contract for us under current conditions, the effects of the strike lingered, and not just because our pay might have been docked to the tune of 50 bucks or so for the work missed during the strike.

We’re beginning to see the changes we have collectively worked for. As I write this, furloughs have resurfaced in the news over the past week or so, and it’s good to know we won’t face them even as we feel for those having to basically take a pay-cut under a slightly fancier verbiage. For some reason, the strike reminded me more than anything about the prospective graduate students I’ve shown around campus as they visited their potential new school.

We’d often talk about money, and where to live, and what grad school is really like, but we, the more experienced graduate students, talk about GEO. It might not register amid the whirlwind campus visits, but this one thing makes a world of difference. Our organized effort — the rallies and phone calls and meetings and activism of each of us, of those former grads who I barely remember from my first year — continues to make it possible for these new students to come here, and for them to show someone else around in their turn and tell them about the union that has helped them win a more fair contract.