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Memoirs of China

Susan Jane Gilman’s Undress Me in the Temple of Heaven.

 

Amid the relative warmth with which China embraced the outside world during the 2008 Olympic Games, it was easy to forget what travel within that country used to be like. Just a couple of decades earlier, China was about as welcoming to foreigners as a Florida swamp full of half-starved crocodiles.

The country’s impenetrability, of course, made it appealing to adventure travelers, many of whom turned their experiences into books. One online bibliography published before the Olympics lists no fewer than 14 titles, ranging from Paul Theroux’s Riding the Iron Rooster to Colin Thubron’s Behind the Wall: A Journey Through China. Now comes Undress Me in the Temple of Heaven, a quirky addition to the genre by a writer who, unlike a Theroux or a Peter Hessler (River Town), was neither a seasoned adventure traveler nor a Sinophile when she visited China in 1986.

In fact, Susan Jane Gilman didn’t speak a word of any Chinese tongue, was armed with only a Lonely Planet guidebook, and she and her equally clueless travel companion, Claire, had dreamed up the trip during a less-than-sober 4:00 a.m. meal at an International House of Pancakes (IHOP).

“Neither of us had ever traveled independently before or been to a country where we couldn’t speak the language,” Gilman recalls. “The farthest west I’d ever been, in fact, was Cleveland. Nonetheless, we became convinced that we should not only embark on an epic journey, but begin someplace incredibly daunting and remote, where none of our friends had ever set foot before … At that point, Communist China had been open to independent backpackers for about all of 10 minutes.”

Undress Me is a follow-up of sorts to Hypocrite in a Pouffy White Dress, Gilman’s best-selling memoir about growing up with eccentric parents on Manhattan’s Upper West Side in which she displayed a streak of self-deprecating, tongue-firmly-in-cheek sassiness. There’s plenty of sassiness in Undress Me too, albeit tempered with a sense of the grotesque as Gilman plunges ever deeper into the chaos and unfamiliarity of China.

She gets a nosebleed — and a dose of reality — as soon as she and Claire step off the plane in Hong Kong. “The reality of how utterly alone we were was starting to hit me; the loneliness of it was sonic,” Gilman writes. “We could disappear or die here — who would even care? It was, I realize, a Copernican moment. For perhaps the first time in my life, it became viscerally clear to me just how little I mattered, just how much I was not in fact the center of the universe. It was a swift kick to the gut.”

The book goes on to describe menacing Communist officials, life-threatening illness and disease, lack of nutrition, a language barrier as large and imposing as the Great Wall itself (“All the signs, of course, were in Chinese … It was as if a computer glitch had converted everything into dingbats, squiggles, and glyphs … It made me feel brain damaged”), and ultimately, a Heart of Darkness-type descent into madness.

Food is always a challenge: “[I]n the poor nation of one billion, the Chinese ate things we average Americans found repulsive. At the Pujiang Restaurant, ‘chicken’ consisted of feet, necks, and chopped-up spinal columns; ‘pork’ meant bone shards with strings of fat clinging to them; ‘beef’ was tendons, joints, and gristle.” As for sanitation, Gilman spares no details for those of us who’ve always wondered what it’s like to use a public squat toilet.

The better travel memoirs, though, are as much about the writer’s self-discovery as about the discovery of a place. And Gilman does “find” herself through the reflective, red-tinted gaze of China. She shows her inner resourcefulness in an encounter with Chinese officials who come to her hotel room after Claire, stricken with mental health problems, disappears into the Chinese wilderness.

“When a stranger arrives announced on your doorstep in the middle of the night accompanied by the military police, many people, I suspect, would get nervous and demand to contact their embassy,” she writes. “I am smack in the middle of a communist country known for its human rights abuses and political torture. Amazingly, in my fatigue and disorientation, I simply wave them inside like the hostess at a Tupperware party.”

There’s also a hint in the book that Gilman’s progression from frightened foreigner to resourceful heroine mirrors China’s transition from dark and gloomy authoritarian stronghold to emerging free-market competitor. When she visited the country, reform policies were improving the standard of living, especially for urban workers and farmers. In December 1986, students, taking advantage of the political thaw, protested the slow pace of reform. The backlash that came three years later in Tiananmen Square could not stop the momentum of modernization.

In an epilogue, Gilman evokes the extraordinary pace of change. One woman named Lisa, whom she meets on her 1986 backpacking adventure, was a picture of abject misery, apparently condemned to “endlessly washing dishes for her husband, serving beer to foreigners.” But 20 years later, when Gilman revisits China, the same woman “has gone from being a young waitress with a pink hair ribbon to one of Yangshuo’s preeminent entrepreneurs. Today she owns and runs two guesthouses and a restaurant, and she and some American business partners are finalizing a development deal for a four-star hotel. When President Bill Clinton came to Yangshuo in the late ’90s, Lisa was not only part of the delegation who welcomed him, but the proprietor who served him what he declared to be ‘the best coffee in Yangshuo.’”

 

From the page to the stage

The universality of David Sedaris — a review of When You Are Engulfed in Flames.

 

After selling millions of books worldwide, penning an Obie Award–winning play with his equally well-noted younger sister Amy, and cultivating the kind of sweater-vested, lefty politico audience that must keep the suits at National Pubic Radio (NPR) waist-deep in spicy tuna rolls, how exactly does David Sedaris manage to keep himself fresh and culturally relevant? At the top of his game, Sedaris has always been the thinking man’s humorist — the kind of literary lothario that even your grandmother has heard of (and adores, naturally). Now, with his sixth collection of witty, observational-styled essays, When You Are Engulfed in Flames, Sedaris has reached a crossroads in his epic career: either grow with your core base, or fade into pop cultural obscurity.

When You Are Engulfed in Flames, along with its accompanying global book tour, can best be viewed as an ongoing case study in misfit dysfunction — a natural continuation to Sedaris’ trademark genre of wry, autobiographical narration. Whereas his previous collections have revolved primarily around the outrageous hijinks of his thoroughly unpredictable Greek family, the stories presented in Flames display a heightened sense of maturity and confident self-awareness, the sort of which that courses breathlessly through every page and every chapter. If Me Talk Pretty One Day, Sedaris’ 2000 release about moving to France with his partner and his struggle to cope with learning a foreign language while thriving in a foreign land, stood as his literary adolescent years, then Flames represents full-fledged adulthood: a coming-out party for a now-seasoned world traveler; an awkward pupil of culture now especially skilled at the unusual art of adaptation.

As its inflammatory title suggests, Flames spends more than 300 pages highlighting emotions of fear and discomfort and the many perils of frequent travel, and no one recreates the outsider experience quite as vividly as Sedaris (in classic, peak form) does. There’s a reason why he is able to affix the title “noted humorist” to his business cards, and in Flames, the humor is no less sharp or wryly observant than in prior works. The difference here is that Sedaris is writing from an interloper’s perspective more frequently than he has in the past, and his descriptions of third party discomfort play as well as the book’s more personal elements do.

An early chapter entitled “Keeping Up” finds Sedaris watching vacationing American couples arguing loudly outside of his apartment window, taking desperate stabs at figuring their way around Sedaris’ adopted home of Paris, while concurrently mangling the French language as though it were a garbage-bound piece of paper. (One woman even mistakenly believes that her meager Spanish skills will suffice for the trip.) Still another story brings Sedaris to the doorstep of his father’s neighbors in Raleigh, North Carolina, where he makes acquaintances with a flamboyant 15-year-old, whose own Southern-fried parents proudly proclaim to be a homosexual. Odd, Sedaris sniffs in his biting narrative. In his own Southern childhood, identifying oneself as gay would have been nothing short of a death sentence; you’d have to find yourself a girlfriend “who was willing to settle for the sensitive type.”

The best story in Flames, however, is the memoir’s last: a multipart epic about the author’s two-decade-long love affair with smoking cigarettes and subsequent decision to give them up for good. It’s an arduous undertaking that has Sedaris and his partner, Hugh, relocating to Japan for a three-month excursion, steeped in the fundamental principles of cultural misfit-hood. Broken up into three distinct sections — “Before,” “Japan,” and “After,” respectively — the story offers an inside man’s perspective into Sedaris at his very best and most introspective, and indeed, the entire account reads as though the passages were copied directly from the pages of his diary. “The Smoking Section” is equal parts poignant and melodramatic, altruistic and self-serving, all at once. It is here that Sedaris demonstrates his remarkable ability to spin seemingly mundane scenes into funny and interesting lifestyle pieces, with no shortage of heart. By its conclusion, one can’t help but wonder why moving to Tokyo wouldn’t be just as, if not more, effective a method for kicking butts as attaching an endless parade of nicotine patches to one’s forearm would be.

As a performer, Sedaris’ star shines equally as bright, but in a radically different manner than his comedic persona radiates when regulated to the page. Currently underway on a multicity North American book reading tour, Sedaris has taken to reading out loud from works by other authors, a few of his as-yet unpublished essays, and even a smattering of excerpts from his personal journal, offering a rare glimpse of the author when he is unfiltered by the bounds of the editing process.

It’s fun to watch Sedaris relay his unique brand of offbeat, awkward humor to the audience in person, and listening to the introductory origins of each story provides the kind of elated enhancement that is more often applied to the most cherished of fantasy fiction, but rarely to the kind of observational memoir writing of which Sedaris has repeatedly proven himself a master. Robbed of the protection of editors and literary distance, many equally capable writers would more than likely find themselves foundering onstage. In his public readings though, Sedaris demonstrates that, on paper or off, he’s able to use his biting and keen sense of humor to make pathways into his audience’s hearts; put quite simply, he’s just a funny guy.

Converting humor from the page to the stage is no easy feat, and many fine nuances are often sacrificed in translation. The fact that Sedaris has been able to consistently maintain a long-lasting relationship with his avid readers stands as an overwhelming testament to his genius and talent as both a writer and a performer. The trick to remaining relevant is to grow and mature with one’s audience — a difficulty that has seen many gifted artists forfeited in its wake. Sedaris, conversely, continues to regenerate the kind of radiant humor and spark in both his writing and his performing that has simultaneously drawn in younger readers while keeping his core base unwaveringly interested. Upon reaching the summit of Flames, one gets the sense that this isn’t Sedaris’ zenith; rather, it’s something of a new beginning.

 

District of despair

For some, Washington, D.C., considered the capital of the free world by many, is all about missed opportunity.

Washington, D.C., is, to date, my greatest failure. My Waterloo. More aptly, perhaps (if you want to remain on the firm soil of American history), my Bunker Hill. 

To those unlike me, D.C. isn’t a site of lost opportunities, but instead stands tall as the capital of the free world — a shiny beacon of white, pristine hope, symbolic for those wishing to flee from tyranny and seek out more fruitful pastures. Even in the face of multiplying criticisms and America’s perceived antagonism in the arena of world politics, millions around the globe still look upon the city’s magnificent landscape and see the representation of lofty achievements and dreams that can be accomplished from very little — or, more often, nothing — returning their longing gaze. D.C., with its air of inherent optimism, is many things to many people.

But to me, it represents failure.

No, I’m not concerned about the uncertain swampland of its foundation, nor plagued by its notoriously oppressive summer heat; it’s not even the inadequacies of the fumbling judicial system that leave me feeling on edge. Rather, it’s the fact that I’ve been to this city-state four times and have yet to actually see or set foot upon anything touristy, noteworthy, historically significant, or otherwise. The Capitol Building? Washington Monument? White House? Nope. On four consecutive occasions, these tributes to democracy have eluded me with the swift, lethal precision of a top-tier CIA agent.

The first time I ventured forth into the District of Columbia was in eighth grade, when a seriously flawed plan to send 200 suburban Detroit middle-schoolers to Washington, D.C., for only one day was conceived and executed. Over the course of a single 18-hour period, every member of Anderson Middle School’s eighth-grade class piled into a charter flight, which appeared to be on par with the Wright brothers’ plane in terms of safety features, and set forth, bound for our nation’s capital. Upon landing, we spent the day learning what the district looked like from the inside of a tour bus, whizzing along at 70 miles per hour. For an uncommonly generous allotment of 45 minutes, we were allowed to teeter on the edge of Arlington National Cemetery, which was, on this particular day, roped off and closed to the public, due to an elaborate military ceremony which would probably have been interesting to watch, had we been allowed within 80 feet of it. Without any historical context for the site or ceremony imparted upon us by our chaperones, we let our inquisitive eyes fall over the closed gates, and the agenda pressed onward.

The next stop on our itinerary, naturally, included a quick interlude for some regional food at Taco Bell, followed by four hours of sitting in the lobby of the Smithsonian, waiting for the chaperones to regroup and, more than likely, figure out how to cast their charges as liars when the story of their ineptitude eventually made its way back to the parents. By the time we flew back to Detroit that evening, I was already drafting a complaint letter to my congressman about the abysmal state of public education in this country.

So it was that inaugural foray into D.C. that set the precedent for repeated disappointments. I returned to Detroit feeling angry, frustrated, deceived; utterly betrayed by what was supposed to have been a whirlwind tour full of sightseeing and wonder. As a child, I had grown up worshipping the aura of D.C.: Both of my parents were — and still are — active political junkies, and my little brother and I lived in a household where MTV was forbidden, but the personalities on Capitol Hill and National Public Radio were revered as demigods. From the time I could start stringing sentences together in my mind, I idolized political nerd-icons like John Adams, Thomas Paine, and especially the man on the money, Benjamin Franklin. In school, I continually impressed my teachers and befuddled my classmates with my ability to drop names like Newt Gingrich and Walter Mondale into casual conversation.

Washington, D.C., was therefore something I felt entitled to. It was always supposed to be mine — setting foot upon the same city where so many great leaders had lived and governed was not just my privilege, but my God-given right. Yes, to my 12-year-old self, I had been endowed by my creator with certain unalienable rights, and the most valuable of these was to visit D.C. — I was the girl who would have far preferred the license to vote over that to drive.

Years later, putting aside my battered feelings of rejection, I decided to attempt a calculated foray into D.C. again at the age of 21, but this time, on my own grown-up, self-mandated terms. My second trip to the District took place during the summer of 2006, when I traveled by Amtrak to visit a close friend who was working in the city for the National Breast Cancer Coalition as an unpaid intern. Seeing as how summertime in D.C. is about as climate-friendly as a hot tub on Mercury, we could barely manage to coax our sweat-stained flesh out of bed each morning, let alone go out and see the sights. Alas, my desperation to traverse hallowed ground could not match my lust for the arctic blast of air-conditioning. The closest encounter I had with an authentic D.C. experience occurred when Danielle, my friend’s ultra-right-wing roommate (for whom Hitler would not have been conservative enough), participated in a number of antagonistic staring matches with my Seven Sisters college-attending, rugby-playing, woman-loving friend. These showdowns happened while Danielle was in the midst of preparing to go see Sean Hannity deliver a speech — although, according to Danielle’s plaintive whines, poor Sean’s political views just didn’t make the “conservative enough” cut. (Perhaps he and the Führer could have, in an alternate universe, commiserated over beers together.)

Trip number three to D.C. only served as a stopover on the way to New York City. As I watched its tantalizing skyline rush by through the tinted windowpane of a Chinatown bus, I shook my head in disbelief that my favorite city — by proxy — was yet again slipping through my fingertips. It was like digging through an overflowing goldmine and not being able to clasp the riches within the clench of my palm. Another gold rush, vanishing into the horizon like a dreamy, beautiful mirage. I was an eager miner without a prayer.

Trip number four occurred on Groundhog Day, 2008, just after Punxsutawney Phil disappointed millions by seeing his shadow and thus selling far fewer novelty beer steins than usual. The purpose of this fourth and as yet final trip was to see two of my favorite stand-up comedians — Michael Ian Black and Michael Showalter — perform live on a double bill at a historic synagogue on I Street. While I have yet to set foot on Capitol Hill or see the likeness of the Lincoln Memorial depicted on anything other than a snow globe, I am proud to say that the historic — it’s historic! — I Street Synagogue has felt the tread of my foot and has been absorbed by my tourist’s eye. And while the evening ended on a decidedly happy note, I could not help but pay acknowledgement to the familiar sensations of disappointment and loss that always seemed to accompany any association I might have with the city itself. Yet again, I had approached the heart of D.C. only to be turned out at the last minute — an outcast lost among insiders. Perhaps it was my lot to be a continual immigrant — not crossing from one country to another, but still hoping against hope to slip through the invisible threshold undetected. For the fourth time in my scant 23 years on earth, I had found myself on the wrong side of the deportation proceedings.

Washington, D.C., has thwarted my efforts of exploration four times. Each journey leaves me feeling unfulfilled, wasted, and spent, but yet I continue to remain completely enthralled by the city’s imposing presence. It has failed me as much as I have failed it, but I somehow manage to abide by a strange sense of optimism, in the hopes that one day I will achieve my American dream and conquer the mystical city. Someday, I will make the long-overdue pilgrimage to reclaim what is mine — what has always been mine since the days of my childhood. Modern America may sport a reputation for brutish arrogance and impatient action, but perhaps those who judge us as hotheaded have forgotten that nearly a decade elapsed before independence was obtained from Britain. If our founding forefathers could wade through indecision, treason, war, and suffering, then surely I can remain faithful until the District is ready to embrace me.

These days, whenever I encounter D.C.’s iconic image, emblazoned with hope before my eyes, I turn eastward and punctuate the atmosphere with my determined fist, saying “You will be mine. Someday, you will be mine.”